Losing What You Love (Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 1

Harry's POV

"Babe thanks for taking me out on a movie date." Anna said smiling at me. We were watching the movie through the front window of my car. "Oh, your welcome babe, anything for my princess." I said smiling back at her. We were the perfect couple and we had been engaged for a month now. I couldn't wait to be married to Anna. She was such a beautiful girl, her long brown curly hair was spread over her shoulders. She had dimples on her cheeks. Where ever she went guys would check her out, which made me mad. I always gave them the 'I'm going to kill you' face. 

-After The Movie-

As we were driving home from the date I noticed a car slowing down on one of the backroads that intersected with the road we were on. As we got closer up to the road that intersected, I noticed the car wasn't slowing down. It was still going the same speed, like it didn't even notice there was another road. I tried to stop the car but it was to late. The other car rammed into the side of mine. Glass was flying everywhere. The car hit on the passenger side, where Anna was. All of a sudden I blacked out and woke up in a hospital.

"W-where's Anna?" I asked the nurse standing beside me. "She's in surgery right now. She will be out in a few minutes. Dont worry, everything will be ok." She answered and then walked away. Anna was in surgery. The thought of my Anna being hurt was in my head. Would she really be ok? 

After about 30 minutes of waiting to see if my Anna would be ok a man doctor walked in. "Are you Harry Styles?" He asked. I nodded my head. He grabbed a chair from nearby and placed it beside the bed I was laying in. "Your Anna Holmes' fiance, right?" He asked again. I nodded my head. "Well, I have some terrible news." He said. I had started to get worried. What was the terrible news? "Anna broke her neck in the accident." He said. "She is no longer with us." He continued. I bursted into tears. My Anna was gone. I couldn't believe it. "That's not all the bad news." He said. I looked up at him questioningly. "Your baby also died in the car accident to." He continued. My baby? What baby? I looked up at him questioningly again. "Wait, did you know that Anna was 6 weeks pregnant?" He asked.  I shook my head frantically. Anna had been pregnant. I was a father. Why didn't she tell me that we had a baby. Was she scared I would leave her? I would never do such a thing. The doctor then patted my shoulder and walked out of the room. I was still crying. I couldn't realize what had happened. I couldn't think of a time of Anna being gone. What would I do? What about the baby. We had a baby. I cried about thinking that my child was gone. I hadn't even knew about it or seen it and I still loved it. Was the accident my fault, or was it the other car? I heard a knock at my hospital door and told who ever was there to come in. The tall man walked into the room. It was Anna's father. "How did this happen?" He asked. There was tears in his eyes. Anna's mother walked in after the tall man. "I-I dont know." I answered. Her mother was crying. "The doctor told us about the baby, we didn't know." He said. Anna was their only child, which means that baby would be their only grandchild. "I didn't know either." I explained. He looked at me questioningly. He must have thought I knew. "She didn't tell you." He said. I shook my head. "Did Anna know about the baby?" He asked. "Um, I dont know." I anwsered. "She knew, she told me about the baby." Her mother said. Her voice was crackled. You could tell she was really hurt about the whole thing. "She was scared that if she told you, you would leave her." She continued. "I would never do that, I loved her." I said. "I know that, but she didn't" She said. "Why didn't she tell me?" Her father asked. "Well, because she thought you were going to look at her differently." She anwsered. Her father shook his head. "How did this accident happen anyway?" Her father asked. "A car pulled out and hit us." I explained. "How could you be so stupid? You killed my daughter and my grandchild." His voice raised. I killed Anna. I killed Anna. I couldn't get that out of my head. I felt a tear run down my cheek. He kept yelling at me but I didn't comprehend the words. My mind was somewhere else. I felt anger throughout my body. At that moment I could have killed her father. I felt so much anger, not at him but at myself. I was mad at myself. I would never hurt Anna on purpose. I loved her with all my heart. Why couldn't he understand that. I was hurt to, not just him. Anna's mother pulled him out of the room. After about a minute she came back in and closed the door behind her. "I know it was an accident Harry, I know." She said. I felt another tear run down my cheek. "I killed her and our baby." I said. "You didn't kill her. The accident wasn't your fault. She wouldn't want you blaiming yourself, dont do this to yourself." She said. The man doctor walked into the room and said I could go home. I got up from the bed and walked out. How was I going to get home? "Harry, we will take you home." Her mother said. Her father shot a look at her like he disagreed. I nodded my head. 

The whole car ride home was silent. When we arrived at my flat, I opened the car door and got out. I walked up to my front door and grabbed the key under the mat, then I unlocked and opened it. As I walked in, I closed it behind me.. I walked into my room. I looked through the closet and threw all of her clothes to the ground. I felt so much anger go throughout my body. I clenched my fists and punched the wall. I had left a big hole. I then felt tears run down my cheeks. I fell to the ground. I would never see Anna again. Tears were streaming down my cheeks. I needed something to get Anna off my mind, so I went to the bar. 

When I arrived, I went and got a drink. After about 4 beers and 2 shots, I was drunk. I didn't remember anything. I saw a girl in the corner of my eye. She kind of looked like Anna, so I walked up to her and started kissing her. I didn't even know her and she was kissing back. I took her hand and guided her into the bathroom. We were still making out. I pushed her up against a wall, my hands on both sides of her body and stuff I'm going to regret starts happening  *I'm not going to write this part because... I dont want to. .-.