Halo

Wondering

Diana

What do you get if you mix, a headache, lies and a cute boy together?

A really fucking big migraine.

Adam had left me about an hour ago. He refused to tell me the truth, but after I had said that I hate liars, something flashed in his eyes. I knew that I hurt him.

Now I'm laying here struggling to fall asleep. My mind is still reeling that I sang in french. I never took French.

God, Diana. Your subconscious sucks. Maybe it was trying to send a message to the consciousnesses of my mind.

My radio was softly playing my playlist. I always titled my playlists after what I was feeling. When I scrolled through my options, my finger subconsciously tapped the most embarrassing one that I ever made.

Lust.

But the explanation behind it. My friend had made it as a joke when were hanging out, laughing, drunk off our asses. I smiled at the memory. I missed Carissa. We were joined at the hip in middle school and high school. We both did guard together and other clubs. She was more outgoing than I was and always got me into doing stupid things.

The song that was playing reminded me of her.

PILLOWTALK.

This song is so dirty, but she was right I would like it. The chorus was playing, while listening to the song, Adam somehow got into my thoughts.

Climb on board
We'll go slow and high tempo
Light and dark
Hold me hard and mellow

I'm seeing the pain, seeing the pleasure
Nobody but you, 'body but me, 'body but us
Bodies together
I'd love to hold you close, tonight and always
I'd love to wake up next to you
I'd love to hold you close, tonight and always
I'd love to wake up next to you

So we'll piss off the neighbours
In the place that feels the tears
The place to lose your fears
Yeah, reckless behavior
A place that is so pure, so dirty and raw
Be in the bed all day, bed all day, bed all day
Fucking in, fighting on
It's our paradise and it's our war zone
It's our paradise and it's our war zone

Pillow talk
My enemy, my ally
Prisoners
Then we're free, it's a thriller

I'm seeing the pain, seeing the pleasure
Nobody but you, 'body but me, 'body but us
Bodies together
I'd love to hold you close, tonight and always
I'd love to wake up next to you

So we'll piss off the neighbours
In the place that feels the tears
The place to lose your fears
Yeah, reckless behavior
A place that is so pure, so dirty and raw
Be in the bed all day, bed all day, bed all day
Fucking in, fighting on
It's our paradise and it's our war zone
It's our paradise and it's our war zone

Paradise, paradise, paradise, paradise
War zone, war zone, war zone, war zone
Paradise, paradise, paradise, paradise
War zone, war zone, war zone, war zone

So we'll piss off the neighbours
In the place that feels the tears
The place to lose your fears
Yeah, reckless behavior
A place that is so pure, so dirty and raw
Be in the bed all day, bed all day, bed all day
Fucking in, fighting on
It's our paradise and it's our war zone
It's our paradise and it's our war zone

Good job Diana. Getting Adam in your head as you think about the most beautiful, sexy, and sweetest guys ever.

Sweetest? If anything he was an asshole, with that arrogant smile that always curled up towards one corner of his mouth.

FUCK! Diana! Get it together.

Maybe I need to get high.

Yeah. I should do that.

I roll off of my blue bedspread and walk towards my suitcase. I open it and push clothes aside to get to my box that I kept all of my secrets.

I find the box. Its a dark blue with a gold shiny lock on the front. I sit down on my bed and unlock it. Inside all of the letters, cards and all of my achievements smile up at me. I toss those aside and feel for the secret compartment that I had put in.

I open the small door and the sweet smell hits my nose. I pull out the blunt. I stand up and open the french doors that lead to my balcony.

I light the end and take in a deep breath. I remember the first time that I ever smoked this stuff. Carissa had already smoke weed with her boyfriend, Jake.

Flashback

We were sitting on my roof at my mom's house.The stars were out and twinkling down at us.

"Come on, two days until the last day of school. No one will find out. Besides, you leave in less than a week. " Carissa argued.

"Fine." I sighed. I take the blunt from her and take a hit. My throat started burning. I started to ask Carissa if me getting high was worth this. But a couple minutes later I was totally fine. I felt really warm. Like I drank some champagne.

Way too much champagne.

I started to get really giggly and happy. I was sure that I was annoying the shit out of Carissa.

"Fuck, you can't hold this stuff." Carissa said taking the roll away from me.

"No! I want it!" I yelled at her. I tried to grab the blunt back but couldn't get a grip on it.

"No more for you." She said taking a hit of her own.

I think I started crying right there like a little dweeb.

" I want it back!" I stamped my foot.

Carissa rolled her eyes. She holds out her hand that contains the blunt.

Well that was fun.

End of Flashback

Now I'm standing out on my balcony enjoying the dizzy high. The smell reminds of that night. I miss Carissa. I need to call her. But one rule I learned when I'm getting high or drunk.

Lock your phone somewhere safe so you don't do anything stupid.

I look up at the sky. The stars seem to be smiling at me. They know so much about me. Everything that I have ever done was somehow involved with the stars.

I inhale one more time. I flick the bud down into the fountain below. As I turn around to go back into my room, I hear the wind rustle my curtains. I turn to look at the sky one more time. Sighing, I walk into my bedroom, closing the doors behind me.

Adam is laying on my bed.

"Why in hell would you smoke that shit?" he asks.

Shit.

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