Its Complicated

Chapter 11 - The adrenaline

Chapter 11 - the adrenaline

***Layer that Lilly's in bed it's 1:00 o'clock in the morning***

Lilly's POV

I reach my hand out and place it on Luke's chest. I smile and open my eyes to look at him.

I start to pant as I struggle to breath "Luke," I whimper "Luuuuuuukkkkeee," I cry. I start screaming and smacking my hand in the bed, just wanting to feel Luke beside me "Nooooo," I cry I smack the bed again. I Scream again even louder.

My mum comes rushing in and lays down next to me cradling me in her arms. "sssssssshhh," she whispers hushing me.

"I'm sorry mum, I'm really sorry," I cry "I swear I thought he was here, I thought he was here right next to me," I continue sobbing into my mums chest. "I could smell him," I cry "I swear I swear I could smell him," I screech.

"I know love I know you could, it smells like him, just don't let your imagination fool you this isn't healthy," My Mum calmly says.

"I think you need to be alone, me and your dad will be at work very early tomorrow or today," My Mum adds kissing me on the forehead before walking out the room.

I pant heavily catching my breath. I choke soon after and reach over and get my water. I then turn onto my back and stare at the ceiling.

Mum thinks I'm crazy, I'm not, I swear I thought he was here, I felt his breath, his touch, I could smell him.

I can't cope with this, I can't do it, I just, I just CAN'T!!!!

Luke's POV

"Luke there's nothing you could have done, we have to go," Beau shouts to me through the bedroom door.

"Go away!!!" I yell back *long pause* "I'm coming in," Beau shouts "Noo!!" I yell but he was already in "LUKW YOU HAVEN'T PACKED!!! OUR FLIGHTS AT HALF 6 IN THE MORNING AND ITS NOW HALF PAST 1!!!!!!!" Beau screams stressing "I'll do it ok," I moan "right ok, hurry" Beau says walking out the door.

"I SAID I'D DO IT!!!!!" I scream after him.

I reach over to my phone and look through all our pictures we took. I giggle to myself and smile.

"I love you," I whisper to the phone as I lean it and kiss the phone as a tear falls down my cheek.

Lilly's POV

"Love, we are going to work I know it's 4 in the morning but I knew you were up so I just thought I'd say bye," My mum says kissing my forehead "Ok Mum, can I watch tv down stairs," I ask "of course you can lovely," my mum answers.

I walk downstairs cuddling my Mum "Love you honey, try and get over the depression," My mum sweetly says before shutting the door.

I wonder into the living room and sit on the edge of the couch with my eyes wide open and I just stare at the floor. I turn my head and look at the pile of Doritos and monopoly pieces on the floor.

One single tear falls off my cheek. "Lilly," I hear someone say "It's Rosie," I hear her continue and I sigh. She walks into the living room to find me staring at the mess not blinking or moving.

Rosie sits next to me and says "I heard about you and Luke are you ok." I don't reply just stare at the mess "Lilly," she continues "I'm fine," I reply quietly still staring "well are you sure you haven't blinked once.

I stay staring at the floor not changing the expression on my face. I blink and as I open my eyes all the tears come flooding out and fall down my cheeks. I still keep staring and don't change the expression on my face.