the loft - j.b.

trente quatre

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cambria

justin walked minutes later with tears on his cheeks, karmen not even looking at him so i walked in front of him. "what's wrong? where's your dad?"

he shakes his head, pulling me closer to him. when he starts crying that's when karmen looks up then gasps. "justin, what's wrong?" her voice was followed by ryan's who was on the back porch.

"justin, what's wrong?" i ask, and he didn't answer. his hands were on my waist and he was crying on my shoulder, my heart pounding. i never liked seeing loved ones cry and the fact it was justin crying my head was starting to hurt. "stop crying or you're going to make me cry."

karmen made him lift his head. he looks at ryan, then looks down at the ground. while wiping his face with his sleeves, he sighed, "my dad has cancer. it's treatable but his doctor keeps saying he's too weak to beat it."

"oh my god." i cover my mouth, understanding why bursted into tears. karmen had hugged him and he just stood there, inhaling and exhaling hard. ryan walked over to him, hugging him as well.
"i should go, this seems like a family matter."

no one answers so i just grab my things, and a few bags that were mine from when we went shopping. as i was on my way out, paparazzi was standing outside, probably waiting for justin to come outside, so i texted him as a heads up.

i felt like this was a sign for me to leave out of justin's life. his dad is dying and if he adds a divorce on top of that his life might just be hella hectic, especially considering he has paparazzi following him now.

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ryan

the next morning, justin was in his home office with papers everywhere on his desk. he just sat there, looking down at them then sighed. "you okay?" i question, walking into the office.

"no." he mumbles. "close the door."

while closing it, he turns computer around, a picture of cambria clear on the screen. it was a picture of her obviously from a while ago because she had braces on. "dude, why are you worried about her when you should be worried about your father?"

"there's nothing i can do to take his cancer away, ryan. and i the person i love by my side through this all."

as soon as he said it, i couldn't believe he said it. "so it's official, you want to divorce karmen?"

he clicks out of the picture and shows an online file for divorce. he didn't click send which meant he was double thinking it. "i want to but cambria doesn't want me to and i don't want to disappoint my father."

i shake my head, turning to open the door. he doesn't say anything and i don't say anything. but my mind was racing because i knew when justin was serious and sincere and he was right now. i just felt so bad for karmen if he did click send.

karmen was in the kitchen. i was trying to leave undetected but she asked me for help to reach whatever ingredient she needed. "is justin okay, he's been in there all morning?"

"he's doing a lot of work now that his dad is handing over the company earlier." then my eyes widen. that's why he wanted a divorce. "i'll be back."

i walked into his office and he looked up at me, "i hit send."

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