Diary Of Rae.

Chapter one

It's been a year since I lost my best friend, Andy. She died in an accident. What hurts more is that I couldn't save her even when I had the chance to. Today 4th Feb, a sunny morning, I decided go to the graveyard. As I spot Andy Simmons on one of the stones I go there, "A daughter, sister and a friend of beautiful human beings who gave her a beautiful life. Rip." Breathing in the air, I bend down and place the daisies on top. I bend down dusting of the grass because im going to sit there which is stupid 'cause I'm already going to get my butt dirty. As I take in the overwhelming feeling of pity building inside me, I speak to my dead best friend. People must think I'm crazy if anyone sees me, but that's what Andy would do to. A few tears fall of my face, telling her what's new. At the moment I just wish she could be by my side through the mess, The ups and downs. The feeling is mutual I guess. She's dead and I wish I was. After a while of sobbing, I got up and picked up my car keys that fell out of my pocket.

As I say my goodbyes to Andy I turn to face the gate. I start walking and see a figure behind the gates. I go further and see a boy, about ten years old with blueish- grey eyes and light brown messy hair. "Did you know anyone in here?" I bend down to his height asked him. "My life." He says smiling with tears in his eyes. Then he adds "Mommy and daddy were all that I... I had." Then it hit me, he obviously has a hard time dealing with the loss of his parents. And I just lost my best friend. This kid can actually keep a smile on that cute face of his. I smile to him. "Don't u want to visit them?" I ask, not wanting to but the silence had to be broken. "If I step into this graveyard you'll never see this smile again." And like that he walked away. I stay there for a while, then I just get into my car and drive home.

As I open the front door I smell a strong smell of fresh fruit salad. And just like that I know my mom is at it again. She has this thing about beating my 25 year old sister,Kate in cooking challenges. Today they must've settled on a healthy dish. I guess that is why I'm not rushing towards the kitchen as my usual. Usually they asked some delicious desert and it ends up in a mess.

I enter the kitchen not only to see my mom covered in salad dressing but Kate almost looking like hulk, covered in lettuce. I start laughing as I see them getting seriously competitive. "So you guys are it again huh?" I say. Kate throws a cloth at me and sends me to start cleaning the other side of the kitchen. "Oh no its okay I don't need a reply I'm fine thank you ill just start cleaning your mess as usual." I say sarcastically. Mom laughs at me and tells Kate to clean up her own mess. I throw the cloth over Kate's head and yell "Have fun you both!" As I walk up the stairs I see my dad all busy in on his laptop. It's not like I don't see him of it anytime anyways. I just go up into my bedroom.

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Okay it's not like I don't have a social life or anything. But I'm surprised to see people actually messaging me on Facebook today. Like this girl Amanda at school she used to be friends with Andy. I guess thats why she probably messaged me. She asks me how I am and normal stuff. Before Andy died I was sort of an average popular kind of girl. After she died. Well no one noticed me, maybe because I had turned more boyish and all but I don't think of it as a bad thing. I mean if there's Anything I want to be now it's definately not famous. Cause all the attention just seems so....unrealistic I guess. Well that's my opinion. As I scroll down my filled up message box I see a guy named "Drew Michael" Drew is one of the schools "popular guys" why on earth is he even my friend on this?

And just like that my laptops charge went and I just go and sleep anyways I have to get up in he morning for hell, I'm sorry "school". Lot of "death" related words be in used today.