Alone

This means war

War plans begin softly and before you know it the silent threat has become a looming monster. Fear is like that, it creeps up on you slowly and the only defence you have is acceptance. War was not at all what I wanted, but life rarely gives you your greatest wants. Lexa, being Heda, would be forced into many many wars before she reached 30, if she ever did. Hedas don't usually last long, but they are always brilliant. Our people demand no less. Lexa has been the most brilliant of them all, she united the 12 clans and brought more peace to us than there have ever been before. The mountain still remains though. And the mountain must fall if we are too live without fear. I still feel guilt for killing my dad but the guilt has lessened after allowing myself too release it yesterday. The guilt lessens with every waking moment and I have come to realise that the man my father became was not someone he would have wanted too be. The man who raised me would have been horrified and wished for the monsters death, and I granted that wish being the genie I am. The grounders have all excepted me back now I helped release their family and friends and it has been a blessing. Before I felt like an outside to my own people but now, now I finally belong somewhere.
I never belonged at the mountain. I was too active, too questioning and most of all too different. Although I left my family at such a young age I never truly left them in my heart. I simply adapted to my situation and bid my time away from them. My childhood in the mountain was never perfect but I did learn, I had a first class education and caring parents. The first class education will give me and my people an edge now. I can operate technology and know the workings of the mountain, the mountain will fall with the help of one of their "own" I was a mountain child, at least I pretended to be while I was there. And now a child of the mountain would watch as they are destroyed. And I would watch with glee as their own education was used against them in the most horrific ways my little mind could think off.  This fight has lasted all my life but now I have an army and I will win.

"Mina? Can we talk?" Clarke's question brought me out of my daze and I swivelled around to face her. We stood outside, just before the woods where I sat with my legs folded under me.
"Speak your mind, ski prissa." I replied softly as she sat down next to me.
"I want to talk about what happened at the drop ship."
I raised my eyebrows at her and frowned, "You mean when your people tortured me. What is there to say?"
Clarke huffed as she let out a huge breath of air and threw her shoulders back, letting her golden blonde hair tumble down her back. "I'm sorry okay. I never should have let Raven and the others do that too you, you're just a kid!" I hissed at her while barring my teeth, "You would do well not to insult me, Clarke or the sky people. We are no longer in your territory." Clarke smiled at that, "Mina it was meant as no insult. You have done so much and experienced so much I doubt you are any more a child than myself. You just lack the years to back it up." I smiled at her then and nodded my head in understanding, "Your Ark people don't respect you as their leader." Clarke shifted uncomfortably and I could tell I hit a sore spot, "That's because I'm not really their leader. My mum is the chancellor, I'm just a teenage delinquent that the remaining 100 look up too."
I stood up then and pulled her up with me. "Look around Clarke, you are more than that. My people respect you as the leader of the sky people, not your mother. This alliance would never have happened without you and then where would we all be? You Clarke care and that is a tremendous quality in a leader, but a dangerous one. Without you the Ark would just have been content to leave the 100 in the mountain, if they even discovered where their young people had got too. Clarke you bring people back from the dead! Remember Lincoln? Lincoln is one of my only friends and without you he never would have survived his transition from reaper to man and I'm forever grateful for that, as is Octavia and many others. Don't you see Clarke. You are the strongest leader your people will ever have and they should be proud too call you their own."

Clarke stared at me for a while after that while I stared on in silence. What had I just done? Why had I made such a big deal out of cheering the sky leader up? Now guess who feels like a fool. Clarke broke the silence by throwing her arms around me and encasing me in a hug. She brushed some of the stray hair out of the way and whispered in my ear, "Thank you, Mina. I really needed that." I smiled into her hair before pulling away from her and watching as she walked back towards Lexa with a spring in her step. There was definitely something between those two... I ship it. Maybe I would have a new sister soon? Lexa raised her eyebrows at me when she saw Clarke's joyful expression but I just shrugged my shoulders innocently and went to the training arena to help my mother out.

Swipe. Jump, step back, lunge. Defend, step forward, jump, lunge, get ready.
The old training mantra was still imprinted into my mind as my noumon and I faced off. We practiced for an hour or so, swiping each other with the training swords and having a great time. This was the way my mother and I connected with each other, no words were needed in our training sessions. We simply just trained and enjoyed our time together.

Anya and I are two of a kind, finding amusement in our own wrong moves and laughter in each other's. When I was younger our training sessions would always finish with us falling too the floor, clutching our bellies with laughter while Lexa shook her head at us. Two goufas, two monkeys. Nomon noticed my distracted mind so she quickly took her chance and swiped my feet out from under my legs.

The air escaped my lungs as I fell to the ground in a great big puddle. I raised my eyes to my mother who tried to hide her laughter and I burst out into a fit of giggles. Mother fell to the ground next to me and rapped her arms around me before pulling me up to standing. "Well done noumon. Well played." I said to my mother as she bowed sarcastically and replied, "You're just out of practice." I rolled my eyes at her before stretching my arms out to the side and playfully knocking my hip against her own. "Of course I am, I've been in the mountain for 10 years. My mum and dad hardly saw fit to train me." Anya stared at me suddenly after that and I sighed, "What noumon?" Anya walked away from me for a few meters before motioning for me too follow. "We've never talked about your  nontu."

I recognised the trigedasleng word for father instantly and straightened up before grabbing my mothers hand, "What about him?" Anya sighed and motioned me into her tent, "What I'm about too tell you must be absolutely secret, do you hear me? No one must know Mina. Not even Lexa." I cocked my head to the side, silently encouraging her too go on. "I need your word as my daughter." Wow, this was getting serious. Mother never asked me like this.
I nodded my head at her before whispering, "On my honour." Mother nodded and began pacing the tent. I quickly opened the flaps and checked their was no one within eves dropping range, what can I say? We grounders are curious people. I stepped back into the tent and made myself comfortable on my mothers furs. I sat with crossed legs and leaned my arms on my elbows as my mother acted in a way I had never seen her before...nervous. "You don't have too tell me if it will cause you this much stress noumon." Anya shook her head and plonked herself down in front of me, copying my pose. "I need to tell you this Mina. As much as you are my daughter you are also his child and you must know about him, and your legacy."

Now I was confused. "I thought he was just a guy who got you pregnant at 16 and abandoned you?" Anya shook her head and ran a nervous hand through her hair. "That's what everyone thinks. He knows about you but we agreed he would never be apart of your life, for your own safety." I grabbed my mothers other hand and leaned in closer to her. "What are you taking about?" Anya closed her eyes before shaking as she whispered, "Your father...your father and I were very much in love. He was slightly older and from a different clan. We knew it would never work but love is blind as well as stupid, I haven't seen him for 15, nearly 16 winters and i still love him." Her voice shook and she stayed silent for a long moment before continuing, "Your father, Mina. Your fathers name is Prince Rowan. Son of the ice queen."