You are just a stranger to me now, Tyler,
I do remember that Christmas.
You can never easily forget something like that with one of your first loves.
Did you know that Ty? You were my first love. That's why it hurt so bad to catch you like that. I thought I could trust you. You were the first one I trusted. It hurt me to the point I left back for home and never wanted contact with you again.
When I got your last letter, I will admit, I cried. Connor had to hold me to calm me down.
Maybe as much as I don't want to admit it, I may miss you. I may still have feelings as much as I don't want to, but I don't love you.
I love the boy that was here to hold me. I love the boy that has been here for me, with comfort in his eyes every time he looks at me. Connor is good for me. He helped me where you ended up hurting me.
I don't want to be hurt anymore, Tyler.
That's why I left. That's why I went home. That's where he found me.
I'm not even sure of what to say at this point,
Troye
