I Can't Live Without You (Jessie J)

Chapter 4

I made my way inside inside after I hugged Danny good-bye.  I glanced around and sighed as my eyes set on the mess left from last night.  I got straight to cleaning as I knew seeing a mess would just set Jared off again.  I did as much as I could as my rib was screaming in protest the entire time.

After nearly two hours I had the kitchen clean.  I leaned against the counter trying to steady myself as I felt dizzy and weak.  I managed to get myself a glass of water and soon after I started dinner.  I decided on beef tips over rice with a cream of mushroom sauce.  Not too difficult.  

I was so focused on cooking that I didn't hear the door go.  I was suddenly pushed to the ground.  The pain in my side instantly brought tears to my eyes but I managed to keep quiet.

"What the fuck is this, Jessica?!"  Jared through a magazine at me.  I looked down and there was a picture of me and Danny hand in hand from this morning when he took me into the hospital.  Damn.

"It's nothing, Jared. I had to go to the hospital and Danny offered to-"

"What did you tell him?!"  He suddenly bent down closer to me and grabbed a fistful of my hair.  His voice lowered to a deadly growl.  I couldn't move.  I was frozen in fear.  I didn't even have the strength to come up with a lie.  He spoke again.

"That's what I thought.  What have I told you about stepping out of line, girl?"  His hand suddenly grabbed the hot pan on the stove and threw it down at me.  I let out a blood curdling scream as the hot metal burned into my stomach.  I threw the pan off and scrambled up as quickly as my injuries would allow.  I'm not doing this anymore.  I didn't care if he tried to kill me.  I had to get out.  Now.

I ran to the door but Jared was much faster than me as he tackled me to the ground.  I struggled beneath him but I was no match for his strength.  He stood me up and wrapped his hand around my jaw, forcing me to look him in the eyes.  All I saw there was pure anger and hatred.  I was scared.  I didn't know if I would make it out this time.

"Where do you think you're going?" he snarled.  "Don't you remember my little promise I made to you?  What was I going to do if you ever tried to leave, Jessica?!"  His voice was low and threatening.  Sobs broke freely from me and the tears returned.  He roughly dragged me to the small bathroom and threw me on the floor.  I no longer had the strength to run.  I just laid there, waiting for my inevitable fate.  I stared at Jared wondering how he would do it.  I noticed he had some cleaning products but I was too tired to care.  I was done fighting.

"Do you know what happens when you mix ammonia and bleach together, Jessica?  No?  I do.  It will release an extremely poisonous gas that will surely kill you in time.  But before that happens you'll be suffering for who knows how long."

I couldn't even properly process what was said before he quickly poured the mixture into a bucket and left, shutting the door.  In no time I could feel an unbearable burning sensation in my lungs and my head started to tingle.  I was struggling for breath.  My vision started to black in and out and I felt my muscles convulse and shake.  It was painful and yet I had no control over my body.  I felt my eyes roll into the back of my head and my senses shut down one by one.  That last thing to go was my hearing and sight.  The last sound I heard was the sound of male voices shouting and a loud barrage of banging before I heard the bathroom door fly open.  I saw the blurry image of someone bending over me before I blacked out completely.

*beep**beep**beep*

I  woke up to a faint beeping sound.  Or so I thought.  I could hear the things going on around me but I was unable to see anything, or move for that matter.  It felt as though I was under water.  The sounds were slightly muffled but they were there.  There was a hand gripping mine and I could hear faint sobbing.  A heartbreaking sound that pierced my senses.  Danny.

"I'm so sorry, Jessie.  This is all my fault.  I should never have let you go back there on your own.  I should have gotten there sooner.  God, I'm such an idiot!" 

I felt something wet land on my arm.  He was crying over me.  But what happened?  I don't understand.  I couldn't even move to squeeze his hand back.  To show him I was still here and that I could hear his every word.  I just laid there, treading water, taking it all in.  That's all I could do.

"Jess, if you can hear me please wake up.  Please.  I can't live without you.  I couldn't live with myself if I knew you were gone before I got a chance to tell you I love you. Because I do, Jess.  I love you so much and I always have."  His voice broke toward the end and I could hear sobbing.  I felt fingers lightly brush my hair.

He loves me?  I couldn't believe it.  These words filled me with so much happiness.  I need to wake up.  But how?  I continued to lie there and before I knew it the sounds surrounding me began to get even more muffled.  What's happening?  My senses were fading fast and the water was getting heavier, pressing onto my body.  NO.  I need to wake up.  I was trying so hard to fight it but before I knew it the blackness consumed me and I slipped back into my forced slumber.

A/N I put this up early because it makes me really happy that you guys like this story so much! I'm at the end of chapter 5 so there will definitely be a part tomorrow :) Thanks for all the support for my first story!