More Than Perfect

Chapter 10

I wake up, to something moving beside me. I roll over to see who it is. It's Matt. Memories of last night flood into my mind. I don't know how I feel.

1 week later...

It's been a week, and Matt and I have been doing the same thing, we did on Friday. It just happens at night.

I love everything about him, but I don't know if I do completely. He might just be using me. I don't know how he feels. Everyday, I think about my horrible actions.

I don't know if I should keep doing this. I'll get addicted. I might already be. "Hey," Matt's low voice says. I smile at him.

"Hi," I reply. He sits beside me. His hands reach my hips. He lightly, pushes me onto the bed, and straddles me. He pulls my shirt off.

•••

We lay in the bed, together. Both, naked. It's Matt's "turn" now. I get on top of him, and suckle on the side of his neck. His voice, releases low moans.

I finish with him, and we both cuddle in the bed. I only have my bra and panties on. It's quiet, the silence is broken.

I hear the door knob twist. We are in the bedroom. I hear the door close, and footsteps get close. The bedroom door swings open.

Liam stands there. "Surprise-" his eyes land on us. I blink, several times. Liam, my boyfriend stands there. "Alyssa?" His voice is low.

"It's...it's not what it looks like..." I start shaking. Matt looks at him, in horror.

"How could you?!" His voice gets louder, as he steps closer. Matt and I sit upright.

"I'm...I'm..." I can't get any words out.

"I come here, to surprise you. And you sleep with another man?" His voice grows angry. "You're such a...slut." His cold, bitter tone, cuts in me. Like a knife.

Matt stands up. "Shut up, she's not a slut!" Matt defends me.

"You should leave," I say. Matt looks at me.

"She's right," Liam glares at Matt.

"No, Liam, you should leave," I say. Liam's eyes grow larger.

"Are you kidding me?! You're such a slut! A whore!" He says. I start sobbing. I can't believe he's saying this. Matt starts walking towards him, I get up and stop Matt.

"Leave," I say, strongly. Liam's eyes go from mad, to sad. The eyes, that make me weak. But I'm making a choice, to let him go.

•••

I wake up the next day, in my own bed. By myself. I have to stop doing this with Matt. I've lost Liam, and he'll probably tell my mom. I check my phone. No calls from mom. Weird.

I roll over, Matt's not in his bed. Last night, was a mess. I lost my boyfriend, because of dumb feelings for Matt. Why? I am a slut.

This was all a mistake. What have I done? I need to call Liam. I grab my phone, and ring him. No answer.

I call several times, no answer. He hates me. He'll never come back. I've lost him. I did a really stupid thing. But when Matt is with me, I feel different.