Hope (discontinued, sorry!)

Chapter Eleven

I laid there, on the splintery bridge. Did I seriously just...do it...with Alex?

My breath began to become ragged, my heart pounding in my ears as my heart dropped to the pit of my stomach.

What the hell was I thinking? I barely know this guy. I'm not a whore, why would I even do such a thing? The minute one guy pays attention to me I just throw myself out there?

I mentally face-palmed myself for acting like such a whore.

Alex looked over, and seeing my heavy breathing he took it wrong and rolled over to plant kisses on my neck. He moaned, "You smell so good..."

My breath caught in my throat, oh hell to the no was I going there again. I pushed his chest away and he looked up at me in confusion, his gray eyes clouded with desire.

How can he still be horny after all we did? Pervy little bastard.

"I'm gonna get pregnant." I bluntly said, eyes unable to meet his.

At this, he chuckled. I glared at him until he stopped and looked at me. "Alright, alright, I'm sorry, I know you're new to this." His voice was so husky, it was sending shivers down my spine.

Stop it! I chastised myself. Stop acting like a whore and get your thoughts together!

"What are you talking about?" I tried to keep my voice from shaking as much as possible, and to my satisfaction, it was steady and came out strong.

"Elves don't get pregnant easily, in fact...It's almost impossible. You have to go through a series of....well think of them as rituals, in order to even think about getting preggo. So don't worry, you're good for the time being. So if you don't mind..." And with that, he buried his face into my neck again, unable to control the moan that escaped his lips.

I pushed him back again, grabbing his shirt from the floor of the bridge and quickly covering myself with it, "Listen.....sorry to say, but it HAS been awhile since I've....uh...done it. So let's take a break shall we?"

I knew I was being such a dork, but the blood was pounding in my ears and the guilty feeling that was churning a storm in my stomach was more than I could handle and I needed some space. Now.

He grabbed his pants and threw them on, following me. His shirt was long on me, reaching mid-thigh, so I didn't have to worry about the clothing I had left behind. Let the rabbits have them for all I care.

He grabbed my arm and turned me around, the worry so evident on his face throwing me off, "Did I do something wrong? Something you were uncomfortable with? I'm sorry..."

His voice, though still slightly husky, was sincere, and so open that it made my heart cry a little for him. SIghing I took his hand, "No...It's not that at all, it's just that..I barely know you, you know? I'm not some whore that just throws herself at guys whenever there's a chance...When I....you know, it actually means something and I hate feeling so cheap and worthless...." I listened to myself trail off, babbling like I always do whenever I feel ashamed or try to cover up a mistake.

I waited for a response from him, but one never came. I looked up into his eyes, searching for a reaction, a response...anything, but he had his head turned to the side, jaw clenched.

"Alex...?" I asked, hesitantly. "Say something...." I almost whined.

When he turned his gray eyes toward me, the depth of despair and sorrow registered in his eyes completely threw me off guard, "You really don't recognize me...? You just think of me as some worthless player that uses girls for sex? You really don't know who I am?"

My mind turned a blank as I tried to rummage through my memories for him, but none turned up. He was so foreign to me, almost unreal. I had never experienced someone like him ever, in my life...he was one of a kind.

He was totally sexy, devilish, and the next moment, he could be impossibly sweet, romantic, and sincere. He had a hard past, I could tell by the way he hung his head when he thought no one was looking, the way he sometimes looked at things with a certain fondness, or a certain sadness. He was genuine, yet unfamiliar...

His eyes had started brimming with tears as he waited for my answer, and it almost broke my heart to see the look on his face when I shook my head no.

He closed his eyes, a single teardrop escaping from his eye, and took a ragged breath. "You said you would remember me, Aria. You said that even though you would probably forget everything else, you would at least TRY to remember me, Aria! What the hell happened to that?!" He started raising his voice, going on a sorrow-fueled rampage.

I took a step back, bewildered, "I don't know what you're talking about!"

"THAT'S THE PROBLEM! You said you would remember...you said that your love for me would make you remember.,, and you don't. What am I doing here? I don't need you. I don't need any of this." His voice was a deadly calm as he finished. Brushing me off to the side I looked at him bewildered, as I saw crystal teardrops falling behind him as he kept walking, away from what had just happened and out of my life.

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Sorry this is so shortt! I've been SO BUSY LATELY, school, juggling 3 sports at once. YIKES!

well i hope you enjoyed!

Sorry if it made no sense, i'm kind of at a block with this story, because it didn't go the way i wanted it to go....so there is a chance i might be discontinuing this story, BUT DON'T WORRY

i have a great idea for a new one

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