It Dosent Mean That I Love U

videos of the past part 1

I wasn't always like this you know sleeping with guys for money but again gotta do what you gotta do and if that means selling myself for a better life for my little brother I'm okay with that I say looking down at my hands my new therapist looks at me strongly as in deep thought do u miss who u were she asks a small smile forms on my lips yeah I say breathlessly I sniffle as I look at her I can't get it back I say slow tears pour down my eyes and that's okay with me I sniffle again I wipe away my tears I just want something good for him you know I tell her everyone's gone its just me and him and he needs me he's a kid the world can wait to knock him down a few notches I tell her "I see" she says looks at me what about you huh she asks don't give up on yourself you can do it and hey I'm here your mom was my closest friend I understand that she didn't want to give u guys to me but you can do it don't worry and hey you've got Reece's and vanilla ice cream in your life what more could a girl need she said as I laugh thanks Shelby your the best any time sweetheart now let's get u guys to school you are not riding that death contraption and tomorrow I will be on a work trip so my son is gonna pick u up Derek I ask slightly shock I squeal like a teenage girl on the high he's outta juvie I ask a wink thrown in no she says flatly but not defensively or angry but she mutters that boy and his ugh she mutters again my step son oh cool I say as I zip Bradleys cote up u look cute I say ruffling his hair he pouts stop it has to look good for Ava he mutters my eyes widen who's Ava I ask in a monotone voice as I look at the small creature of a boy feet below me ummmmmmm he says know one he mutters then his little legs run hard towards the open door as I giggle at his silliness