Secret Love

7.

I woke up this morning feeling really awful about what I did to Ethan yesterday. But at the same time, happy that we decided on just being friends because us almost kissing yesterday made me realize my feelings for Liam.

Although I don't want to. I can't help what I feel. I was falling for him and there was no denying it anymore.

I got up and started getting ready for school. I'm so glad that I only have this year left and then I'll finally be graduating!

I got out of the shower and decided on not going all out on an outfit cause I'd have work after anyway and no one really cares how you look.

So I decided on plain black leggings, a white slightly oversized jersey-top and a pair of black ankle boots.

I left my hair in its natural wave-curl and put some mascara and lip gloss on.

I grabbed my phone and backpack and headed down stairs to find Aunt Julia and Ally having breakfast in the kitchen.

I took a seat beside Ally and grabbed 2 pancakes, some fruit and syrup and pored myself a glass of juice that sat in the glass jug in front of me.

Once we were done eating Ally and I said "Goodbye" to Aunt Julia and made our way out of the little two-story house that sat right on the corner and started walking toward the bus stop that was situated further on from our house and sat down and waited for our usual 07:30 bus to arrive.

As we sat there in silence.

Ally was just about to say something. When my phone *dinged* indicating that I had gotten a text and I knew exactly who it was from, which sent goosebumps through my body and a huge smile grew on my face.

Ally let out a laugh at my silly reaction to Liam's text. But I knew it was only because she thought that I was happy, and I really was.

But then the horrible thoughts of reality began hitting me again. And all my negative thoughts about the cons of getting into this with Liam, all came flooding back and my smile faded.

Ally must've surely noticed my smile that had faded and immediately asked me if I was "okay"?

I looked over at her and just shook my head as a sign of saying "no". Cause I was honestly confused and felt stuck, like I didn't know what to do about this whole thing.

She sighed loudly causing me to turn my head to face her.

What? I asked turning my head slightly and looking down at my phone*

You like him. Don't you? She asked
I didn't turn to face her.

A couple seconds went by before I answered her.

I. I don't want to. I finally got out and turned my head to face her again
She looked at me with a slight smile on her face

But you do? She asked me
I sighed heavily*

I do. I finally said
A smile spread across her lips
I frowned*
Why are you smiling? It's nothing to smile about. I complained

She let out a small laugh which actually annoyed me. And casued me to raise an eyebrow at her

I'm laughing because I can see he makes you happy. Since your parents you haven't given anyone a chance Emily and I don't want you to keep making that mistake. Even if he is famous. She said.

I looked away feeling quite defeated at what she just said because every word of it was true. I haven't given any guy a chance which just ruined the chances of me actually being happy since the whole thing with my parents and even though he was a celebrity. I deserved to be happy. But what if he didn't even feel the same. That would just be a waste and I don't want to get hurt. I thought to myself

Just before I could answer her, another text had come through from Liam and our bus had arrived.

I looked over at Ally as we got up and she smiled.*

It's okay. Just. At least think about what I said. Okay? She asked as she went ahead of me
I followed behind her and paid for us and then took a seat beside her.

I know I had to think about what she said but. I didn't want to get hurt. It's actually the reason why I haven't given any guy a fair chance. It wasn't only because of my parents getting a divorce and me running away to live in London with Aunt Julia to escape it all. It's just that, I had gotten the opportunity to see what can happen if you don't feel the same about someone anymore. It can hurt others too. Not just yourself. I know that you can't plan what happens. Especially when it comes to love. But the way I see it. If you can protect yourself from certain things. Then you should.

Liam had sent a couple more messages, pulling me out of my thoughts and back into reality.

Liam- Good Morning Beautiful💕

How are you on this fine day? Lol

Is everything okay?

Em?

Are you okay?

Emily?

Emily- Good Morning loser💕😘😁

I'm okay. I was just a bit busy. But I'm all yours now.

Well at least till I get to school.☺

Liam- I'll take all the time I can get then! 😘

Emily- Aaawww💕

Liam- 😘

You know what tomorrow is though. Right?

Emily- Yeah. I do.

I can finally get my phone back!

Liam- Did you really miss it that much? 😁😁

Emily- Yes!

Liam- You're so weird.😁

Emily- I'm not that weird!😌😔

Liam- You're right.

I'm sorry.

You're not weird.

You're gorgeous.😘💕

Emily- Aaawww! 😘💕

Oh I have to go I just got to school.

Chat later.😘

Liam- Aaawww 😔☹

Okay.

Chat later.

Enjoy your day! 😘

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