The Broken Book

January, 2016 *trigger warnings: death, self harm, suicide/suicidal thoughts*

1/4/16- I Don't Want You To Die

The key to your mind,

Not easy to find.

Though the key to your heart was mine from the start.

Suffering, wondering, problems and pain.

Conversations much heavier than gallons of rain.

"They don't care about me. Their words sting much like bees."

"I don't want you to die!" I exclaimed, as you cried

If I spend the rest of my life saving you,

I'll be happy for pulling you out of the blue.

1/5/16 6:55 PM- Tick Tock

Twenty three measly hours ago

You were the lowest of tragically low.

Nearly three hundred minutes before the time now

You said you regretted not ending it all.

You can't leave me alone,

You're not leaving yet,

You're not leaving ever,

In stone this is set.

I need you like water, food, shelter and air.

A future without you seems barren and bare.

I know that it's hard,

And you want to give up,

But I'll always be here

I love you, buttercup

1/6/16 3:24 PM- Forever and Always

I can't promise you forever,

I can't promise an always,

But I can say that as long as you need me that I will stay.

I want you in my life.

I don't need to say it twice.

I want to spend my life with you,

Please just hold on for me.

1/9/16 1:07 PM- Both

Cut, pain, blood, tears.

Slut, rain, flood, fears.

Emotion, commotion, worries, snow flurries.

Please hold on for me.

Him, her, them, you.

You both think too.

Trust, love, loss, care.

Don't you even dare.

1/10/16 5:37 AM- One More Time

Switch it off

Switch it off

Turn your phone and laptop off

Now she's gone

Now she's gone

Light in your life, now is gone

Fill the silence

Fill the silence

Do anything to fill her silence

Worry more

Worry less

You think you've got it, more or less