Racing To Find My Love Book Two

Feeling like Edward gave up on me

       Bpov

The words Edward said today. Was he starting to remember. I didn't know what to think or do because as soon as I started to think about it all started hurting again.

"Edward where you going?" I heard Rose say. "I just have to go please Rose I need to do this!" I heard say. What was happening. Was he giving up on me?

Oh my god no. He can't do this to me. I got up out of Rose's bed and started running and they were still in the living room of the motorhome.

Rose started yelling for me. But I looked around and saw the trailer open. I ran into it and put my helmet on and jumped on my dirt bike.

When I drove out my dad tried to stop me but I just drove around him.

      Epov

I started packing I needed to get out of here. I needed to think. I walked out with my bag and Rose stopped me. Edward where you going?" I ran my hand through my hair. "I just have to go please Rose I need to do this!" I told her.

The next we knew Bella came running past us. "Bella stop!" Rose yelled.

Rose ran out the door. "DAD IT'S BELLA SHE HEARD ME EDWARD!" I arched an eyebrow in confusion.

I dropped my bag and ran out the door and what I saw shocked me. Charlie stood in front of Bella and she just drove around him and he punched the side of the trailer. Rose ran up to Charlie and hugged him.

"Rose I can't lose her too damn it." The look on her face and his was pure fear.  “I'm afraid she going to.." Charlie started crying. I ran into the trailer and put on the helmet and jumped on the other dirt bike and went after Bella.

       Bpov

I drove until I found an off road track and followed it. When I reached the end of it I made my own. Up until I came to a small cliff.

I got off my bike and took off my helmet and set it on the dirt bike.

I walked to the edge and saw water. I took off my jacket and my shoes. "Bella don't do this!" I looked to see a see through Edward and Bradley.

"I can't do this you're gone Bradley's gone Jacob’s gone it's to much I can't deal with everything without you. I love you so much. You gave up on me." With that I jumped off.

I let myself sink but I was being tossed around. Then finally I was sinking and I imaged Edward beside me and I reached out for him until everything went black.

     Epov

When I finally caught up with her she was at the edge of cliff when I was driving up. She was taking her shoes and jacket off.

When I parked the bike I caught the tail end of the words she spoke.

“I can't do this you're gone Bradley's gone Jacob’s gone it's to much I can't deal with everything without you. I love you so much. You gave up on me."  But before I could get to her she jumped off. My heart felt like it stopped.

I took my jacket off and shirt off plus my shoes and socks and without another thought I jumped in.

I got to her and grabbed her arm. Once above water I pulled her up to me with one arm and started swimming towards shore.

I got out of the water and noticed she wasn't breathing. "I don't think so Bella." I started doing cpr on her.

I don't know how I knew how to do this but I did. She started coughing and I turned her to her side.

I sat down and took a deep breath and buried my face into my hands.

       Bpov

When I open my eyes and I saw Edward sitting there with his face buried in his hands. He had no shirt on or shoes or socks.