I Give My Heart ~(Synyster Gates Fanfic)~

{Chapter Eleven~Brian}

I called out to Haley, but she just kept walking probably out of my life. I sighed heavily and turned back to my apartment. Michelle stood there, a smile on her face.

I glared at her, "Just hurry up, Michelle." I say as I walk past her. "That's my replacement?!" Michelle laughs.

I look at her, "You saying she's not good enough?" She throws her head back. "And I thought I wasn't  good enough, she looks like she has a roommate!" She does.

I scowl at her, "If your gonna talk trash, then do it somewhere else, I don't want to hear it. Especially from you. Get out of my house." I say as politely as possible.

Michelle laughs, and sashes out the door saying, "You'll come back to me.....,and I'll be waiting!!!!" I mentally kick myself for letting Haley just leave....

I am a jerk. A pompous jerk. I can't believe someone as amazing as her would date such a jerk like me. We haven't been out on an official date. And we've already done things! I'm so selfish, I hate myself right now. I don't think anything is going to cheer me up at the moment.

In my bad mood, I go to my room. And I crash to the bed, sigh and close my eyes. And fall into a fitful sleep.

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I wake up and hear a knock on my door. Rapid and fast. It's Jimmy at my door. Knocking like a mad man who lost his touch.

I head for the door and frown when I see Jimmy and Matt there. Jimmy has such a look on his face and Matt is trying not to laugh.

"What is it?" I ask. Jimmy dances, "I met someone! And since you and Haley are together, we can celebrate!" I sigh at the mention of her name.

Matt frowns, "What is it, Brian?" I shake my head. "I messed up, big time." I say. Jimmy stops dancing and frowns too.

"Haley isn't here, is she?" Jimmy asks. I shake my head. Jimmy slaps my back, really hard. Which causes me to fall a little forward. "We need to go the studio, Zacky should be there." Matt says.

I nod and look at myself, I don't look to bad. It's just my mood that's all. I pull on my shoes, "Let's go." They nod and we head out the door.

I walk behind the two in the hall. There's enough room in the front, I just don't want to be pushed up to the wall.

Matt looks back at me and frowns slightly. "Where's your guitar?" I met his sad gaze, "The studio." He nods and continues talking to Jimmy.

We head down the lobby and exit my building loudly. Jimmy dancing as if he's drunk and Matt joins him. I frown and head to Jimmy crap van. I slide open the back door and climb in. Sitting down with a rushed sigh. Jimmy gets in the drivers side and Matt passenger. They both turn to face me.

"Look, Brian you don't have to come if you don't want. We're not forcing you." Matt says. Jimmy nods, "Yeah, we understand. Completely." Jimmy adds.

I shake my head, "No, I want to go." Matt shifts again. "Then why you acting like this?" I close my eyes tightly and say, "I just feel like a complete jerk."

Jimmy frowns when I open up my eyes again. "Well, maybe you can turn your feelings...into a song!" I smile, just slightly. And Jimmy notices, and his eyes light up.

"Let's just get the h*** out of here." I say, then Jimmy puts the van in drive and we speed off.

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My mood has lightened on the drive over. And I was happier to see Zacky's car in the lot. All I really need now is some Johnny sarcasm to make my day. We open the doors and walk in. Zacky was sitting on the couch there and tuning his guitar. He looks up and smiles at all of us, except me.

I frown and head for my guitar. I sit next to Zacky and he gets up and goes to the other one across the room. I get frustrated and throw my pick at him. He looks up at me and says, "What was that for?"

I give him an unimpressed look. "You deserved it." I reply. Zacky picks it up off the carpet. "No I don't." I furrow my eyebrows.

"Yes, you f**king do." I say. Zacky throws the pick at me and i catch it. "Explain." Zacky says.

I open my mouth to speak when Matt enters the room, holding three cans of beer. "When we came in, you smile at everyone. But me. You always smile at me! Then I sit next to you. And there you are now. Avoiding me!" I say. Matt frowns and looks at Zacky.

"What's this for, Zacky?" Matt interfers. Zacky frowns at me, "Haley told me what you did." Sh*t.

I sigh and look at my guitars body. "Don't guilty trip me. I feel bad enough." I murmur. Zacky sighs and Matt says, "What? I'm confused." I feel the couch deepen next to me and I look up.

Zacky is seated next to me, "I didn't know what to do. And I didn't expect anything to happen." I say, honestly. Matt sighs and walks away.

"Did Michelle really come by this morning?" Zacky asks, looking at me. I nod. "She laughed at Haley. She said, 'That's my replacement.' And other stuff like that."

Zacky smiles, "That sounds like her, I just hope Gena doesn't act as bad with Karla...." I give him a surprised look. He frowns. "What?"

"You & Karla?" Zacky nods as a blush creeps up his face. "She's amazing." I nod.

"I'm sorry about what happened." Zacky said. I nod, "It's alright. I just wish she'd forgive me. I know I suck at relationships, but I didn't think that much!" I say.

Zacky pats my shoulder, "Don't worry. Haley says she sucks at it, too."