With Your Love

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

Kristen and I had our first class, which was History, together and then we went our seperate ways til 1:00 which would end our day of classes.

I was now in Calculus, my 2nd class out of the 4 I had to go to. I hate any kind of subject that has to do with numbers. I don't even know why I signed up for this class anyway. I guess I just thought that I might actually need to know about this stuff in the long run. But it's only my first class of the year and I'm already regretting my decision.

As I stared back and forth between the board that the lecturer was writing, what I could only classify as gibberish, on and the math problem that I had yet to work on, I felt a tap on my left shoulder. Louis.

I had met Louis in History class and the first thing I noticed about him, was his british accent. We talked for awhile before the class started. He seemed like a really nice guy. He was extremely funny and a great listener so I was relieved to see someone that I could talk to so I wouldn't be bored in this class.

"You look lost" he said.

"How'd you know?"

"Cuz you keep looking at your paper like it's written in a foreign language."

I hadn't even noticed him staring at me. Hell, I didn't even know he was in this class. I started to feel embarrassed that I, from my perspective, was the only one who didn't get this. An I knew he could tell.

"Don't be embarrassed. Your not the only one I'm sure."

I just nodded and smiled, not believing him.

"You know what? Why don't we go to the library after our classes? I'm sure I'll be able to help you out."

I hesitated for a moment to think. I did need the help and it would be easier and more comfortable to get help from him rather than the teacher. By his first impression, he was so nice and easy to be around. But then again, I barely knew this guy. Who knows what he could do. But for some strange reason, I felt like I could trust him.

"Okay" I finally said and he smiled.

"I'll meet you at 5:00 if thats okay or-"

"It's perfect." I cut him off and smiled.

The rest of the day went by pretty slowly. I was kind of excited to see him. I'm all about making new friends, but I had a feeling that I might like him more than that.

My ex-boyfriend was such a jerk to me, but he wasn't always like that. He used to be the sweetest thing. He would send me flowers and notes telling me how beautiful I was and take me out on amazing dates. So when a agreed to be his girlfriend, I was more than happy. That is until he revealed his true self.

It was like he turned into the exact opposite of who I thought he was. He would tell me how pathetic I was and call me a whore. He abused me both physically and mentally. And when I told him I was leaving him, he went insane, breaking everything he touched and throwing things at me. He told me that he never cared for me, for me to leave and don't bother coming back. There's plenty more but I don't really like to talk about it.

All of that has me thinking, maybe I shouldn't meet up with Louis. What if our "friendship" turns into something more and I have to go through all that bullshit I went through with Ryan? I'm not strong enough to go through that again.

I need some advise. I'll talk to Kristen. She was there for me through my relationship with Ryan. She's the one who convinced me to leave him and I can't thank her enough for that. If anyone could give me great advice, I'd be her.