Fine Lines and Second Chances (a Niall Horan fan-fic)

Chapter 22 - Lost Hope

A/N: THIS CHAPTER HAS SOME SERIOUS CONTENT IN IT!!!! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

*Niall's POV*

Atari. She was so...complicated. I liked her but she was just so lost and me being a Christian, I couldn't be with her. We were good friends but thats as far as it went. I tried to minister to her, but something deep down made her turn the subject down every time. She would usually run away and lock herself in her bathroom. I could just imagine her sitting there plunging a knife through her stomach and smiling about it, but I knew she didn't have a knife. She just sat there with her back against the door. I was starting to give up on her. I couldn't hold out for her much longer.

 *Daniel's POV*

Atari had finished telling the story and her eyes became weird. I was asking her if shee was ok but she just passed out and fell of her bed. I picked her up and layed her back down. It hurt me to see her like this. My sister was just so sad. She hadn't been happy in at least 10 years. I think that she has finally given up on life. I mean, I don't blame her. If I had been through all that I would too. But I have someone who loves me. I have a dark secret too. I'm bisexual. I have a boyfriend, Bryan, and he's really good to me. But I want a girlfriend, too. I'm falling for Jade, but she has a boyfriend. I'm pretty messed up, but hay, look at my family. After I had sat with Atari for a few minutes with her stabilizing, I walked out to go find Niall and Jade. I decided to tell Niall just to please my sis while she was still alive and I also decided to ask Jade a very important question. I got in the elevator and went to the main floor. The girls loved the courtyard so I guessed that's where Jade was. I walked out into the shaded area and saw the beautiful girl sitting on a bench alone. I took a deep breath and went for it.

"Hi Jade...umm..I have a really important but personal question," I said kinda confidently.

"okkkk," she drug out the word as if unsure she wanted to hear it.

"Well, it's also a confession. Umm, I'm bi and...I have a boyfriend and he's ok with having others in the relationship and I've fallen for you so I was wondering if you wanted to be my girlfriend..." I kinda said it fast and rushed my words together, " I know that you already have a boyfriend but I wasn't sure if you would object to having another one..".

"........well, ummmm," was all she said.

"Sorry, please still be my friend and don't tell Atari," I said as I got up and started to leave to find Niall. She grabbed my hand and pulled me back a little. She stared into my eyes as if reading me.

"Daniel," she paused," thank you for coing out. Um, my boyfriend broke up with me...not to long ago. It's still fresh so I wil get back to you on that," she said and let go of my hand.

I smiled. I turned and went to find Niall. He was in teh cafeteria, like always, but this time he was flirting with some hospital staff chick. I walked up to him, grabbed his collar,and drug him into the hall.

"The hell do you think you're doing Horan?" I almost yelled at him.

"Well I was talking to a girl but a psyco pot head almost choked me to drag me into a hall and yell at me!!" he shot back.

"Well, for your information, I was saving you. Anyways, I came inhere to tell you what you are going to do," I said, not leaving any room for loop holes.

"I don't answer to you," he sounded like a five year old.

"You will if you want to keep you nuts," I told him. He gulped.

"FIne, what am I doing," he wasn't wxactly happy but I didn;t give a fuck.

"You are going to make my sister happy, by any means nessecary." I said in mymost intimidating way  possible.

"Not if it interferes with my religion?" it came out as a question, guess I was pretty scary.

"By any means nessacary," I said again and left.

I loved being in control. And I also love seeing my dying sis happy. Life was pretty good at the moment.

*AtariLynn's POV*

I was on my bed and alone. I didn't care. I was way passed caring about anything. Niall's love couldn't even make me care. I lost all hope that I had had. I was going to die. I was not going to be loved. I was alone. That was the way things were and there was nothing I could do about it. I had accepted life and the fact that there wasn't much of it left. About the time that I was going to hold my breath until I would pass out, Niall came in.

"Hay beautiful," I was speechless.

"I'm dying. No one cares," I said, trying to make him leave.

"I care," oh.my.gosh. his voice was soo seductive. He sat on my bed and leaned over to me. He breathed down my neck making me shiver. He ran his lip over my ear and whispered, 'i want to love you" he then got up and shut my door, locking it behind him. By the time he had reached my bed again he was shirtless and his pants were undone. My breathing was uneven. There was no way that he was serious. It was a prank to get me back...right? He crawled onto the bed on his hands and knees, he gently pushed me down holding himself above me. I don't think he's kidding anymore. I decided to accept it and became my dark seductive self.

"Might as well enjoy life while its here," I whisper, pulling him closer.

"I'm calling the shots" he says as he rips my shirt open. he throws it onto the floor along with his jeans. I liked the new and improved Niall. He pulled my pants off and climbed on top of me again.

"You up for a little exercise?" he said winking while unhooking my bra and tossing it.

"Maybe," I said innocently but at the same time full of lust.

After a few seconds of our remaining clothes flying across the room, we had an amazing five hours of hard, fast love. Pure love. Not sex, love. Niall actually did love me. I still didn't have hope but at least I did have a lost hope named Niall. I would soon turn him into my dark lover and forever. I knew religion wasn't true.