Fine Lines and Second Chances (a Niall Horan fan-fic)

Chapter 16 - Patience

A/N: while during the dream, listen to Ellie Goulding (without Tinie Tempah) - Hanging On

I hate waiting. Especially when I could be doing something more productive with my time. I sat in my room going mad with every passing minute that I didn't get that call, not to mention that I was already slightly crazy. I did everything that I could to keep my mind off of it, but nothing worked and I found myself just sitting with a crazed look on my face. I sat and tried to think of all the ways to kill someone as slowly and painfully as possible. My treatments for cancer had been delayed because I had gotten very sick from worrying over 'Jennifer'. It had been about a week since Jade had gone missing, and the only company I had was the voices the were constantly swarming in my head. I wasn't allowed to call anyone that I used to know for help, so I sat on my bed and slipped into insanity. One evening, about 10 days after Jade had been taken, the boy that I had almost done 'it' with, came into my room to try and comfort me but it ended up being REALLY awkward. He remembered me and he was at a loss for words, but his presence was appreciated because I finally wasn't alone for a little while.

"So, how are you and how have you been?" he tried making conversation.

"Umm..good...erm...you?" I stammered out in awkwardness.

"Fine actually, umm so I know we neither want to talk about it but I would like to address what happened and I would like to explain myself...if its ok?" his adorable and cute accent, beautiful blue eyes, and messy blonde locks got to me and so I let him keep talking, he proceeded after my nod of approval to continue.

"Look, I'm truly sorry about the other night but I got ahead of myself and you...everything about you...clouded my mind...look I'm a Christian and so I believe in waiting till after marriage to have sex, I'm sorry I shouldn't have handled it the way I did. Please don't let that mistake get in the way of a possible friendship." he said sounding truly sorry so I forgave him.

"Thanks but it doesn't help matters, you still made me feel horrible.....I will try to forget that night and not let it interfere with the present....I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY TOOK HER RIGHT FROM UNDER ME!!!! HOW DID THEY GET IN AND NAB HER AND WHY DIDN'T THEY TAKE ME TOO?!?!?" I cried as I let it finally get to me.

"It..it's ok, it'll all be fine. They will be caught and Jennifer will be ok and back here with you." he soothed while rubbing small circles in my back.

"Why? What do they want with us? What did I do to them? HE was the one who started it, HE is the one who killed my mom! HE raped Jennifer. The OTHER one broke my heart. The OTHER one wants me for revenge and for his own pleasure!!! Gahhhh I hate them so much! They should both die, and I intend to help them with it." I vented and my insanity almost taking over.

"Aly, please calm down. You need some rest, I'll even lay with you if you want me too. I can protect you." he said trying to make me feel better. The name he called me triggered old memories and I had forgotten that that was my new name. I started to wonder why I chose it, it held so much pain.

"Why would you want to? I don't even know your name!" I was choked up and I was seriously relapsing with my cancer because of the lack of treatments, so I started coughing up blood.

"Oh my gosh!!! Are you ok Aly? I'm getting help!!! ........Also my name is Niall hun, my name is Niall. I will always be here to help." Niall said freaking out and also cooing at the end.

I blushed, hard. It was hard to breath from the blood blocking my trachea. The doctors came rushing in and started to run tests. They imediately sent me to treatments. They had to put me under so that I wouldn't try to cough up the blood, so they could just get it out of my throat. I woke up on a cold metal table and in a white room with blinding white lights. Niall was in the room, asleep in a chair in the corner. I had IVs in both arms and a mask over my face. I felt like I had just gone through hell. My body was sore and I still had the taste of blood in my mouth. I tried asking Niall to help but I couldn't talk. I was really tired but there was no way in Earth or hell that I was going to sleep. I slowly reached up and used all my strength to pull the mask off. I then took the IVs out and slowly got up and walked out of the room, careful as to not wake up the sleeping boy. I slowly walked to my room, becoming VERY exhausted, and layed down. I soon slipped out of conciousness. I dreamt of a perfect world where my life was like it used to be. There was no abuse, death, pain, anything. I was happy again. I didn't know it but I had started to cry in my peaceful sleep. I was running through a familar field and into my dad's arms. My twin was chasing me and when she got up to me and dad, she sat on the ground and pouted because dad was always base and so therefore she couldn't tag me. This was one of my favorite memories. My mom sat under a nearby tree with the picnic that we had brought. She called to us to come sit and eat lunch and then we would be able to resume our game, which sent us running to the food. We ate as fast as possible. We talked of my brother soon going off to college and how we would miss him. He wasn't able to come on the picnic because he had to move into his appartment. Me and Aly finished our lunch in at least 10 minutes. We quickly excused ourselves and resumed our game. Dad and mom sat watching us, smiling. We were all happy then. At almost my favorite part, Niall woke me and I saw that he was pacing frantically. I was so freaking pissed because he ruined my dream and I wanted to kill him. I was getting up and heading for him but he stopped pacing and called to someone out in the hall. A doctor came rushing in and stuck a needle in my neck and I was put asleep AGAIN. I woke up back in the small white room with the IVs and junk on again but I didn't remove them. Niall was awake and standing beside the bed. He sighed with relief as I opened my eyes. I looked at him confused and he just shook his head. I still played the memory/dream in my head to try and not forget it. I started to cry again, sending Niall into another frenzy of worry. I pulled the mask off and told him not to worry, that I was fine. He put the mask back on my face and relaxed. I layed there staring at the ceiling. I wanted to leave, better yet I wanted to die. I couldn't take much more of hurt and I was worried to death about Jade. I looked for my phone and suprisingly found it on the table by my bed. I grabbed it and saw that I had a text. I opened it and guess who it was. Harry. I read it and immediatly tried to get up and meet the demands that had been sent. But, I was stopped by a doctor and he explained that I could die if I got up and took the IVs out again. I didn't really care that much but I was too weak to protest. I layed back down and thought of what I did wrong that made my life so screwed up. I was too upset by this thought and completely broke down, sending the monitors that I was hooked to into a beeping party. Doctors ran in trying to stabilize me but I started to seize and then everything went black. The last thing I saw was Niall being taken out of the room. And as I went out I just smiled and relaxed in the thought that I was going...going to die and be removed from all of this.

A/N: hay guys!! sorry that I haven't updated in like a month, I've been pretty busy and also grounded so yeah. Hope you guys liked it!! Please comment and vote :p  anyways thanks for reading this, you don't know how much it means to me. Sorry that it's short but it's a filler so i guess it's not that bad but whatevs :) thanks again lovelies :*