Lana

Lethal

All I ever wanted, all I ever lost,
The good and the bad,
You and them, all that I got,
You were my definitions,
And I lost you in a sudden.

I know it was me,
I'm leaving and moving on,
I would be lying if I say, it had not been planned all along,
I want a better life, but with you a part of it,
Guess 'better' is not even in my current expectations.

Spent my time remembering,
Wishing I could be there, with all of you,
I lost my control, depressing,
I should be happy, for you,
Didn't know what to feel, in devastation.

Smiles that I could fake,
Promises that I could make,
Will we ever be meeting again?

I should play it wise, time was a game,
We should embrace while we had each other,
We never knew this story has its ending,
But not now, and not tomorrow,
Keep believing with every little pieces of faith.

It felt so alive when I had it all,
Now, I let go all that,
Does not mean I am dead,
But sure I am dying inside,
The air I breathed, slowly changed into a foreign breeze.

It was very empowering and glorious,
When I was flying with a flock of Phoenixes above the skyline,
Now it's gone, it felt poisonous and lethal,
The memories crawling in my veins,
Won't fall from zenith, as I could possibly die.

The way you showed me feelings,
Showed me relationships,
Showed me life, and the hidden beauty underneath,
Losing you is a nightmare, losing all of this,
Is lethal.

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