' Im so sorry Sean, I should have never left you.' I say into his chest. He just holds me tighter.
' I dont care that you left, I care that you think your not good enough. You will always be enough for me. You are my definition of perfect. You are...
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(Deria)
Not remembering that I was the one in the hospital, Sean and I kissed. The kiss became deeper, as if he wanted to do it all his life.
I wondered what it would be like. Us outside of school.
Then I remembered who he was.
I pulled away, and climbed off of him.
" Aianna! Whats wrong?" He said, trying to grab my hand.
" I still know who you are. You have been the boy who has tortured me for years, just because you sit in a hospital with me doesn't change anything. If you wouldn't have been trying to distract me, I wouldn't have fallen. I wouldn't have ended up in the hospital, failing my classes."
I started crying." My college dreams are gone, and i'm stuck with you every day! I'm sick and tired of falling for someone who isn't gonna be the same when everyone is watching."
I push his chest. "I cant do this, you wont do this. I know you. I've been there for thirteen years, and you've never changed, why now? "
I got up and went to the other side of the room. I heard footsteps, and turned around. Tears streaming down my face, I whispered to where I barely spoke at all.
"Just go Sean. I know you just feel guilty, and I'm not going to force you to be here because your the reason I got hurt. You probably have some sort of booty call to go to or something." I turned away from him, and sat on the floor.
The door closed, and he was gone.
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It was two weeks later when they let me go home. I finally had the right amount of blood in my body, and my vitals were stable. I had lost over half of the blood sufficiently needed for the body to survive.
I almost died, and all Sean was worried about was getting in my pants.
I felt so stupid, and helpless. I let some fantasy, and a few sweet words wipe my judgment away.
Not anymore, I wouldnt be that girl again. I wont let some horndogg neighbor of mine get to me, no matter what kind of feelings I harbor for him.
Ill stay away from him, and keep my window locked.
Ill tell mom I dont want to see him anymore.
Ill have Deria protect me in school.
Ill- my thoughts were cut short when walking down the sidewalk, I get knocked off my feet y someone. I look up, and speaking of the devil, he appears.
" Oww! What the-" I looked away, and tried to stand up. I couldnt catch my grip on the sidewalk, and fell right back down, cutting my elbow on a rock.
" Oh my god, Aianna! Im so sorry! I didnt mean-" I cut him off.
" Just go away! I hate you! All you do is get me hurt,n one way. I thought you liked me, that you cared about me! but you dont, you just cared about me while I was weak so you could get into my pants. Well, newsflash! Its not going to work! If you ever come near me again, I will hurt you so bad, you will wish you never knew my name." I stood up, and walked away, blood falling from my elbow.
'Dont look back! Dont look back! ' I told myself, but I couldnt do it.
When I looked back, he was looking at the ground like a puppy who just got scolded.
A pain shot through my chest, and I kept walking. I didnt care, I wanted him to hurt.
He made me look like a fool, now it was my turn to hurt him back. And I had a plan.
