I am miserable and can't stop being so pathetic. All I can do is lying and acting. All this makes me want to puke. And all I think about is happiness and I guess I need you for it.
But what if not?
If I'm just hallucinating?
If this feelings aren't real?
And this is so strange
repeating all words
all process
again
I can't stop dreaming.
I can't stop trying to stay alive.
I can't stop.
Do I even want to stop?
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You're on my mind again.
I'm trying to get over you, I'm trying yet
I don't want to give you up.
Please forgive me for being so different
so strange
so me
All I need is you to hug me and tell me that I shouldn't leave. I won't. But still, tell me.
