And I feel so lost again.
Still chasing after you, still hoping, while laying on the ground.
It's hard to move
It's hard to breath
It's hard to keep going like that.
But the monsterous wall get's bigger
I can't see you anymore
I can't hear you anymore.
And someone is talking. Is trying to talk so loud but ends up being so quiet.
I don't listen
I never listen
Just stay here and get myself hurt
by words
by undone actions
by thoughts and dreams
by you.
I'm not going to forget you but I'm running like crazy and I'm trying to give up but I always stand up again and I guess I'm just too dump to give up.
I try to move while my whole body's shivering and all I can do is to think about you, my little star.
I tell everyone I don't have a reason but we all know
it's because of you
Because you're not mine
And because these voices are taking advantage of it
So I'll be leaving
But first
Let me finish this one thing
And let me say goodbye.
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Und ich dachte dass als alles ist ertragbar. Ich schaffe das. Ich schaffe das? Wirklich? Wieso kann ich nicht mehr? Wo ist meine Kraft? Sie schindet und ich krieche langsam hinter dir her. Mein Käfig wird immer kleiner und du gehst immer weiter sodass ich dich nicht mal mehr sehen kann. Und da sind diese Halluzination. Ich will dich endlich wieder sehen, wieder mit dir reden, my little star.
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Leise prasselt der Regen draußen während leise die Musik im hintergrung läuft. Und plötzlich ist ein leises schluchzen zu hören. Ich bin so unnütz. Alles ist so sinnlos. Was mache ich hier? Blut tropft von meinen Armen runter und ich kriege kaum Luft.
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I can't help you. I cannot help myself. I'm just here. I just listen. Listen while you talk. And you talk about your horrible life and how I gave you new hope but I'm so selfish, my dear. I'm not that human you think I am. I hold back my tears since I am not important. You don't notice a thing or you're just ignoring it. You're so nice. You're so different. But you're not him. So I'll keep being stubborn, keep listening, keep being quiet. I felt so lonely and I was just being nice to you but you're reacting the way I always wanted it. You're a little mystery but I don't care. I will leave and I will hurt you but I don't care. I just want to leave this place.
