Once i read it i threw my phone acros the room i ran down stairs grabed achole,pills and as much razors as i could find i then ran back upstair picking up my phone and put on some music i opend the jack danials and chuged all of it down every inch buring my throught but i couldt give a fuck i took a razor and sliced my wrist leting all the blood poor out on to my floor i went over to my closet and took out a box full of drugs frist i smoked weed and then looking at the pills i poord them all out into my hand their was only 15 i slid them down my thoght hopeing to just die you culdt bare life any more he was the only thing that kept me alive and threw every thing around my room a started to scream and cri
J:i fucking loved him that fucking ahhhhgh i just want to fucking die
I screamed all i could do is lie their and scream and cri their was no point in living i finaly fell asleep i woke up around 2ish reached over a grabed a cigeret i lit it and sat their staring blankly at the celling affter i finished the cigert i looked down and seen i still had on michaels sweater i rip it off walk over to my closet and put on a long sleaved ptv shirt got in my moms car because my mom was on a trip for work i start the car blairing the music i dint car that i look like shit i parked the car in the street in front of michaels house i sent him a text saying to look out his window i could see him and and calum looking out the window i then took about 45 pills grabed the sweater and a lighter walking in to his yard wobbaly i then held up the sweater and set it on firer then all i could see was black
