Leave It To Me

Chapter 9// (Reese's P.O.V.) I'm Sorry & I Mean It

It's been over a month since that phone call...  but I still remember it so vividly.

I sighed as the phone hung up. She didn't say it. I can't blame her. But what I really can't believe is that she really believes that I don't think she's beautiful. I don't think anyone can ever even begin to understand the feeling that goes through my heart when I see her. I play it cool, but I'm so nervous around her. And I hate the fact that I can't be around her. I don't even know how to explain what I feel for her... But I know that I love her, and I know that there isn't any other person I want to spend my life with. I just don't know how to explain that to her when she doesn't want to talk to me... Maybe that's just it. Maybe I need to give her space...

I rolled over in bed, it was 4 in the afternoon. I couldn't think about anything other than how nice it felt to have Rena wake up beside me. Without her, I felt empty. It felt like I had made the biggest mistake of my life. And it hurt.

I didn't have work today, no appointments, no plans. I sighed as I got up and went to take my shower. As I stepped out I couldn't help but think about how bad I messed up, but how little I had really done to fix it.

I decided that I'd just ride around the city. I've never been on a subway before, but I figured it had the same aspects as that of a train back home in London. After I got dressed I gathered my things, and I was on my way.

I made my way through the busy streets and sidewalks of New York. Allowing my legs to carry me wherever they chose. Before I knew it, I was standing in front of Rena's moms house... I didn't know what I was doing there. I knew she didn't live there anymore, she has her own apartment now.

I soon found myself knocking. Before I realized just how bad of an idea it was, I was face to face with her mother. "Reece, what a.... Surprise!" She spoke, with a shocked tone. As if I wasn't supposed to be there. And I wasn't.

"Hi, Ms. Elise... I um, I wanted to know if I could talk to you... About Rena?" Her eyes were subtle and her voice cooed. "Of course, come in." She moved aside and I slid by her. She closed the door behind her and I followed her to the living room.

"So, what's going on?" She asked, making direct eye contact. "I feel so bad. I feel like I did everything I promised not to... I need to fix it. There's no doubt in my mind that I am in love with her, and I have to prove it to her." I spoke in a rapid voice, my words jumbled together. Not because I was nervous, because I was admitting it not only to her, but to myself.

For the first time since the incident, I realized why Rena might hate me so much. I did the very thing I promised I'd never do... I hurt her, I made her cry, I lost her trust...

"Well, if you ask me, you have it all figured out. You just need a plan."
"Like what?"

"Reece, that's not my call. I think you love her though, and I think she loves you. So you have to convince her. However YOU know possible. Ya get it?" I nodded and she smiled. We stood up and she embraced me in a tight hug, one that almost made me miss my own mother. Emphasis on almost.

We said our goodbyes and I hailed a cab. I knew what to do, but I didn't know if it would work. The cab pulled up outside of my destination and I paid the driver. I opened the door and breathed in the familiar scent.

I walked to the front, pausing when her voice called. "Welcome to REC! Looking for anything spe-... Reece, what are you doing here?" Her voice filled my ears and I couldn't help smiling.