A Place In The Universe

The Point of No Return

I take one last chance at trying to open the door but my already futile attempt fails. With a sigh I turn around and I slide down to the ground, my back against the door and I look up to the night sky.

Its beautiful. There aren't any stars but its still something.

The air gets colder and I have no jacket or jersey or anything to keep me warm.

Time slowly ticks by and the sky gets darker and as I hear the laugher from inside when the lights go on...

I see one star in the sky.

One more....

Another one....

Soon dozens appear and I get up and walk further into the garden to look at the sight. I can't stop smiling.

I move my gaze from the sky to the house. I've always felt like.....like...

Shaking off the thought I look up to the sky again.

So beautiful....

I think I know now why "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" became a thing.

Its more than just a children's song...

Its a symbol of humanity's curiosity.

A product of our undying, strong and freedom seeking human spirit.

My train of thought is taken by the sound of the front door opening.

"Come in." She mumbles.

I walk in without a word or looking into her eyes. Nothing was said when I passed my dad and my brother. My sister is most probably asleep...

"Take your food and go to your room. Goodnight."

"Night" I reply as I take my mac and cheese to my bedroom. I close and lock the door behind me, sot on my bed, plug my head phones in and listen to Pentatonix while I eat.

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"YOU DON'T GIVE A SHIT!"

"OKAY THEN WHY THE HELL AM I THE ONLY ONE PUTTING FOOD ON THE TABLE THEN?"

00:10

My parents screams fills every corner of the house. Again. This has happened so many times before and its usually about me. This time however....

"You and Elsa are just the same!"

Ahh nope, there it is.

"Maybe you should take her with you."

"Why drag her into this??"

"Oh please"

"No, tell me. First you insult me then you drag her name down the same dirt when this has nothing do do with her!"

"YOU'RE GONE FOR SO DAMN LONG WHY DO YOU EVEN CARE?"

And it goes on...and on...

And louder.....and louder....

Eventually my sister wakes up crying.

I want to be there with everything in me, but I can't move.

Sitting up, with my hands on my ears and my eyes closed tight, I can't move an inch.

I can't breathe to save my life.

Make it stop......

Make.....it stop.....

Make it......

Blackout.

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The sunlight beams through the curtains as I open my eyes. I get up slowly and move towards the kitchen....anxiety in each step I take.

"Morning love" my mom says in a sweet voice paired with a smile.

"I'm making breakfast. Want some?"

"N-no thanks. I'm gonna take a shower."

I walk back to my room, annoyed, more angry, with her.

Its so typical of her to act like nothing ever happened.

I stand in my room, take a deep breath when an idea pops up.

Bag packed, I strap it over my shoulder and turn on the shower and climb out the window.

I've always felt like I don't....

Belong here.

I don't.

And I have to face the fact that

I.

Never.

Will.