A Place In The Universe

Time

Well....lemme just start off by saying I am taking a much needed break for a few days. I don't know when I'll be back but I will be back. Maybe before or on the 9th. We'll see. But in the words of Sasha herself: onward we go.

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I've been having some serious writers block these past few weeks. But in this time...I had one idea stuck in my head but I didn't want to work on it. I don't know why though. Guess I just felt like...I didn't have all the pieces together just yet. I'm even skeptical about writing this. But...I'll try to make this...somewhat interesting. Or good.

Time.

Obviously some of you may know its one of my biggest obsessions. Or interests really. I'm not entirely obsessed with it. If I could study it, I wouldn't hesitate.

Anyway....its not just something that interests or intrigues me.

It also scares me.

To those who know me well....you might know what's coming.

You ready?

Murphy's Law.

Anything that can happen, will happen.

In one of my fanfictions, "Return Of The Angel", the description of the story was:

"Anything can happen in a year"

And without me knowing it...I kind of refered to Murphy's Law. Even in the most subtle ways I made it clear that time was something that grabbed my attention.

Time...and what happens in time... Is completely out of our control.

Think about it. Its fascinating.

We as humans gave time a name. We gave it order. We let language and math and science make sense of it.

But its not within our control. Its not ours to claim.

We don't know when it will end. We didn't have a say as to how it began, how it came to be....why it is the way it is....

Its something that started the minute we did.

And it'll go on even after we are gone.

And what happens in time...our lifetime...may or may not be within our control. And here's what scares me...

When I leave for my break, anything can happen and cause me to not come back at all. I can be cut off from everyone who came to know me.

It could be a case of WiFi cutting off or....

Something could happen to me.

Either way....

Time will tell.

So cliche. But so true.

And as much as it scares me, it draws me in too.

Yes, I am a nerd. And I embrace it.

On a side note before I end this...I thought about something a few days ago.

According to society you have to be average. In between. In the middle.

You can't be a nerd or they'll shut you out. You're too intimidating.

You can't be ignorant. They'll look down on you and make fun of you.

And if both cases are a result of a medical condition... It doesn't matter. Its either black or white. No grey area.

And it frustrates me. Maybe a little bit too much but.... I don't know.

It's okay if you can't perform as good as the smartest person in academics. As long as you try your best.

Its okay to be smart. (Go watch their videos BTW)

You might help to make a difference in this world.

And as much as I agree to the cliché of "stand out"....don't be too hard on yourself.

If you are happy with yourself, what everyone else says is irrelevant. Unless they only want what's best for you, of course.

With that....until I return...its not goodbye. Oh no. Its never goodbye... Its...

See you soon.

Elsa.