My STUPID Journal

I feel so bad :(

Well I fucked up.

So I really like this one fanfic writer who writes really good tronnor (Troye Sivan x Connor Franta) fanfics and I think I just pissed her off like the little shit I am

She is writing this fanfic and there is a smut in it and since she can't write smut, she has someone else write it. Some of the words have to be censored in case of the chapter being privated.

Like for example, co ck, shįt, ect.

And I was calling her out on it because I thought it was kind of funny how shįt is an actual word and how funny the words looked.

Anyways she told me to read the beginning of the chapter (which I did) and she told me to twice since I called her out twice.

Then I told her that I was just joking. And then later on I went

'Now I feel like dick
Sorry'

She updated a new chapter and since I feel like huge prick, I only commented once and voted.

I feel so embarrassed and I'm just waiting for gods fist to come out of the ground and drag me down into an inexistent hell.

Like I would just gladly except going there

WHY AM I LIKE THIS?!?

WHY DO I EMBARRASS MYSELF LIKE THIS?!?

I SHOULD JUST CRAWL IN A DITCH AND LIVE THERE FOREVER AND STARVE AND THEN EACH WORMS