A Mindless Murder

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Carlen's POV

"And then I just walked away!" I finished telling my friends the story of how me and Ray Ray met.

"Are you high?!" Blake asked. It was a damn shame! They didn't believe me!

"I'm dead ass! He ran into me like he was running from something and he asked me my name and then I left!"

"With out screaming and trying to take his clothes off?" Janice asked.

"Yeah!" I scream.

"Wait, Janice I don't think she's kidding." Blake finally realized I was dead ass! It wasn't anything to lie about.

"Damn." Janice said. "You're right, look at her face she's definitely telling the truth."

"Told you!" I shout.

"Oh my god!" Blake screamed. "You actually met Ray Ray in the hallway?"

"Yes! I've been explaining this for about 10 minutes now!"

"Dammit! I knew I should have went with her!" Janice said.

"I'm actually glad you didn't." I confess.

"Oh!" Janice scoffs. "Okay then."

"Look Janice it's nothing personal its just that he seemed like he was into me."

"What's that's supposed to mean?!" Janice shouts.

"Guys not now." Blake says. Blake knew something was about to go down.

"Forget it." I say dropping the rising argument.

"No! I wana know what you mean!" Janice shouts again.

"Guys!" Blake tries to warn us again but we didn't listen.

"It means you're always the one who gets the attention!" I shout at Janice.

"Jealous much?" She asks.

"Guys leave it alone were friends here!" Blake shouts.

"Bitch you wish!" I screamed. "You always think your ms. Perfect, ms. Amazing, ms. USA. You're nothing but another attention slurping hoe!"

"So where is all this coming from all of a sudden?!" Janice shouts.

Blake sits back in her seat and sips on her soda knowing she can't break this fight up. Instead she pulls out her phone and starts tweeting.

"All of a sudden?!" I continue. "This isn't all of a sudden! This has happened ever since we were little!"

"I don't understand why this is all coming up now!" Janice shouts.

"Uh-oh." Blake says knowing something else was about to pop up.

"Janice don't even start okay! You know everybody always liked you, you know all the boys think you're perfect and amazing, and for once I want a boy to like me for me! I don't want anyone to like me just because I know you!"

"Where is this coming from?" Janice says.

"I don't know." I admit. "I guess it's just the fact that your the gorgeous one and for 10 years I've been living under your shadow."

"Carlen." Janice scoffs. "You're just as beautiful as me. In fact all of us are beautiful. Why was this all turned around on me?"

"Because!" I scream. "I'm always the insecure one! I'm always the last resort. Nobody wants me."

For the first time ever I admitted to my friends how insecure I was. I never felt beautiful. For 10 years Blake and Janice were always the apple of someone's eye. And then there was me, alone, nobody cared about me.