Haruhi froze upon hearing the stern tone of his voice. Why was he glaring at her that way? Didn't he want this? Didn't he… Didn't he want her? "Hika…"
"What is this about, Haru?" Hikaru's grip on her wrists didn't let up. His golden eyes bore into hers with an unspoken anger swirling in them.
"I… I thought you… I thought you wanted me. I wanted to give myself to you… I…" Haruhi felt the tears rising in her eyes, and she blinked constantly to try and force them away.
"Haru love, I do want you, but not like this." One of his hands dropped her wrist and rose to gently caress her cheek. "I've been thinking since yesterday, when you said this Sunday we'd… Well, I was doing some thinking, and to be honest I'm not sure if I'm ready for that. Yeah, sex is on a teenage boy's mind all the time, and it would be absolutely amazing to be with you that way, but we're still young. I don't want to force you into anything I know you are not comfortable with. I'm not ready to take that step yet, and Iknow you aren't. We can wait. Sex isn't something we can just plan and do, you know? We have plenty of time, and wouldn't it be nice if our first time was on our wedding night?"
"Oh, Hikaru…" Haruhi wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him lovingly. "I love you…"
"I love you too, Fragola." Hikaru smiled at Haruhi.
"Wait." Haruhi pulled back slightly, "Why were you so nervous? And why did you unbuckle your belt?"
Hikaru blushed, "I was nervous to tell you we should wait. I didn't want you to think badly of me… And when I'm nervous I have to… do things with my hands…" Hikaru gave her a gently kiss, then placed his hands on her naked waist, "Let's get your clothes back on, okay?"
Haruhi laughed, "Alright."
During the time it took Hikaru to- amusingly- dress Haruhi and sneak in kisses here and there, Haruhi had not once noticed the crashing sound of thunder just outside of the walls. The sound was loud and clear, but Haruhi didn't hear it. Her focus was on Hikaru, and it wouldn't be till after she got home and finished her coursework that she realized Hikaru was a wonderful distraction from the terror she felt during a storm.
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My Choice
FanfictionChoosing between two things isn't simple. Serenity or Normality. Choosing between the two should be easy, and for Haruhi Fujioka her decision changes not only her life, but life around her.
