Fine //6\\

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by thatpvrisgurl

by thatpvrisgurl

A l e x

*5 days later*

I look at the bandage on my arm and wince at the pain. "Alex? C'mon dude we're leaving!" Lynn says through the arena bathroom door. "Okay! Coming." I yell back, wiping my eyes and putting my hoodie back on, walking to the exit of the small place we were playing in. "Alex, it's boiling. Take your hoodie off." Brian says as i approach the van. "No, babe I'm fine." I say, giving him a quick peck before climbing into the van.
***
"So, what are we gonna do? I'm so bored!" Lynn exclaims, flopping onto her bed. "Same story," Brian says, lifting his head up from our little 'cuddle session.'
"Well, you shouldn't be, cause your cuddling me stupid." I laugh, turning my body to face his, burying my face into his shoulder. And then my world turns upside down.
He grabs my arm, directly over my cuts. I gasp and pull away, knowing what's about to come. "Alex? What's wrong?" Lynn asks, whilst Brian gives me a look of pure sorrow. "Can we stop at the next stop?" He asks, watching me tear up. "Terry! Stop at the gas station over here!" Lynn calls at our driver, who pulls up as Brian drags me into the restroom.
"How dare you." He says in a low voice, making me look down at my shoes. "You know I lost my sister to self harm I don't wanna lose you to!" He yells, tears pricking at the corner of his eyes.
"I'm sorry." I yell, burying my head in my hands, "it's the only way I can cope without her!"
Brian gives me a look of dissatisfaction before waking out. I would've preferred it if he yelled, i would of liked it better than being ignored. But I guess I brought it on myself. I deserve this.
***
After I finish crying I go back to the van, not wanting to lie next to Brian, so I go to Lynn. "C'mere." She says, opening her arms. I gratefully climb into them, sobbing into her shoulder. "It's okay Lex, it's okay." She soothes me. "It's not though, he hates me. I love him, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry!" I sob, hearing Brian ride from his bed and walk over to Lynn's bed. "I don't hate you." He says, lifting me up bridal style and hugs me to his chest. "Im sorry. I'm so so sorry." I mutter into his cologne scented chest. "It's okay, I'm sorry too." He says, laying on our bed, putting me next to him. I cuddle into his side, getting a bit cold. "Can I see?" He asks, making me gulp.
"Y-yeah." I say, pulling the bandage off of my deep cuts, hearing the gasp leave Brian's mouth and feeling his salty tears on my arm. "Never do this again. Promise me." He whispers, rolling my sleeve down. "I promise." I say, rubbing the blue sleeves of my all time low top.
***
"You okay now Alex?" Lynn asks, putting one of my earphones on, having Asking Alexandria blasted in her ears. "How can you understand what he's saying?" She asks, frowning and twitching her nose in concentration. "I don't know? I can do it too ya know." I say,
"Go on then." She says, raising an eyebrow. I breathe in and let out an eat piercing high scream, making Lynn put her hands over her ears. "SATAN!" She screams, hitting my cut up arm and running out. I didn't tell her about the cuts, I'm getting tattoos over them soon to cover the scars they'll leave. She runs out of the bus when the main act: black veil brides, arrive. I go out and greet my very tall friend, Andy and do my handshake with Cc.
This is the last performance until we go home so we're planning on fearless vampire killers and us, PVRIS, all coming onstage at the end and singing in the end with Andy. It's gonna be good.