A l e x
My voice is hoarse from shouting, my eyes sore from crying, my heart aching from being stabbed multiple times. I hurt all over as I get up, starting to pack my things. I don't have the money to keep my flat on my own. I need to go back to moms.
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I arrive with a squeal of the car brakes and huff of exasperation of what's about to come when I open the front door. I grab my duffel bag and walk to the front door, taking a deep breath before stepping inside. My mom immediately asks what her waste of space son a doing home. I just walk upstairs, ignoring her angry, drunken cries, with tears in my eyes and a hole in my soul. He's gone. He doesn't love me. I just face plant my bed, thinking about life, and how i don't want to be a part of it anymore.
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I wake up the scent of egg, making me do an extreme gag. I hate egg!I roll out of bed, going downstairs for water and a banana seeing that Mom beat me to it. "Alex, look in sorry Ben kicke-"
"He left. So I left too, don't have enough for the rent." I mumble, filling my glass up, taking a sip through my cracked lips, trying not to sob. "Look, I'm sorr-"
"Stop saying sorry! It's my fault, I did this not you!" I yell at her, letting out a broken sob halfway through. "Alex." She cooes, holding my in her arms as she rocks me back and forth, "please stop drinking mom. I need you. Please?" I ask, tears still soaking he shirt, but half of them are hers now. "I'll try. For you, I really will." She mutters, kissing my black and blonde head. I just stand there being rocked back and fourth by my mother. How very grown-up of me.
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"So you're back in town now? Our band could do with its old guitarist back?" My friend, Lynn asks, "Look, I'll um. I'll see. Im not in the.... Best position at the moment." I say, running a hand through my hair. "Ok, well, meet me at Starbucks tomorrow, we can talk." She says, "fiiiine." I mumble, looking up at my ceiling, "okay, bye Lex!" She says,
"Don't call me that." I say, groaning.
"Okay, bye Alexander!" She says, ending the call laughing. I flick through my tunes and find a recommended band, Asking Alexandria, and put a random song on, closing my eyes.
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'Never been so torn up, in all of my life. I should've seen this coming. I've never felt so homeless, I don't wanna do this anymore.'
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"He wasn't worth it." Lynn states, twitching her nose and crossing her arms. "But I loved him. I can't believe he's break up with me over this!" I exclaim, sipping my caramel frappe to cool me down. "Well, it's his loss." She smiles, making me smile too. "Yeah."
"Are you okay?" She asks, looking at the glistening tears in my eyes.
"Yeah, I'm just fine."
