Torn|G.D. [MAJOR EDITING]

II

^listen to the song...rn^

I wanna be normal.

I wanna fit in like everyone else.

As I walked down the hallway of my new school, I felt alienated. The only person I knew was Elise, who transferred here with me.

Of course she was late and probably wouldn't show up until school almost ended.

I looked at my schedule and looked for where room R318 was.

When I looked up, I had bumped into a tall, buff guy (not to mention hot), who looked at me with cold, confused eyes and turned back to laughing with his friends.

I went up to a random teacher and asked where that classroom was and she pointed towards a red themed hallway and said the even's were on one side, and the odds on the parallel side.

I got to class earlier than most people, I didn't feel like interacting with these obnoxious ass people.

That's when the bell rang.

Everything happened so fast. 

People were just piling in and whispers and stares.

I couldn't comprehend anything or what was going on.

I was dizzy.

That's when it hit me.

Another panic attack. 

I quickly got out of the classroom with the stares following my every step.

I ran to bathroom and threw up.

"Hey, anybody in here."

I leaned against the stall and waited for the person to leave.

"Hey, you okay?" it wouldn't stop talking to me

"Uh...yeah" I lied

That's when a head poked under.

"You're crying, so you're not okay." the thing kept speaking

I felt my face and it was wet. 

"My eyes were sweating. I'm fine." 

I flushed the toilet and unlocked the door walking to the sink.

The feeling came rushing back and I ran back to the toilet.

The tears were uncontrollable and the vomiting was endless.

The thing didn't speak. It walked over with damp towels and sat down next to me and gave me a gentle hug.

We sat there in silence while I cried in it's arms.

"I'm Callie." The thing went away. It was Callie talking now. 

"I'm Chaster. I just moved here. It seems pretty cliche, but I kind of ran out of class room. Anxiety and everything."

She nodded her head and agreed.

We stayed there until the next bell rung and just talked about life.

"I'll see you at lunch Chas!" she walked out and it was just me.

Me and my mind.

"Yeah bro, some chick legit dipped out the classroom like Usain Bolt! She was hot, maybe a freak."

"Apparently she was already being talked about today and she's new. Shit happens."

"I heard her mom yelled at her in the class and she ran out or some shit like that. It be ya own homies I'm telling you."

My name spread across the school like a wildfire. 

"You weren't lying, she's a fine lil thang G." 

I turned around to see the boy I bumped into a while ago and his posse. 

"You the new girl?" He asked

I turned away and one of them commented.

"Shit, we thought you were weird, but rude? That's not gonna fly by shorty."

"And you know what else isn't gonna fly by? Me talking to you cause I don't talk to ugly boys."

They retorted and started cat calling. 

I really wanna leave..

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A/N: this is legit how I feel when I start panicking or hit deep depression. Leave Chaster be.