I'm gonna fight to stay (BTR fan fiction) On Hold! :(

Chapter 12

I don't know what to say so.... ENJOY! :D

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The one how grabbed my arm turned me around.

"James!" Kendall said.

"I-I-I-I-I'm a-a b-bad person..." I stammered.

"James, you're not a bad person." Kendall looked at me wierd. "Why do you think that?" he continued.

"T-Tanja, f--freaked, I-I screamed a-at her... S-she hates me.. I'm a bad p-person..." Tears rolled down my cheeks.

"No! James! Look at me!" he said shaking me. I looked up at him, just as I was told. "You. Are. NOT. A bad person!" he said right in my face. I swalloed, trying to believe him, but I coulden't. I shook my head.

"I screamed at her for nothing! Kendall, I AM a bad person!" I cried. He shaked me once again.

"Stop it! Lets go back to your room, cause you still need to rest. I'll call her, ok?" I nod. He hugged me as we walked back to my room. I layed down in my bed, still cring.

"I'm horrible..." I said quiet to myself. Kendall picked up his phone and left the room. Short after... I think, Carlos came in.

"Hey... I heard about Tanja..." was the first thing he said. I looked away from him. "I'm sorry.."

"Carlos... I yelled at her for nothing... Why am I like this?! I hate myself!!!" I put a pillow on my face to hide the tears. Wait, what? It's Carlos. He maybe not have the answers, but he's always trying. Plus, he is my best friend. I looked at Carlos. He looked sad. "What should I do?!"

"I-I'm sorry. James, I-I don't know what you should do..."

"James." Kendall said in the door. "Tanja dosen't answer the phone..." he said, a sad look on his face. I cried even more.

"Told you! She hates me!" I screamed. I just can't believe I did that! I mean.. She.. She just didn't know, and I jealed at her! You can't even imagine how mad I am at myself.

"STOP SAYING THAT!" Kendall screamed back. "SHE DOSEN'T HATE YOU!" He was mad. Like REALLY mad. I went quiet, tears still rolling down my face. Carlos looked chocked. "I'm gonna prove it to you..." he continued after a while.

//Kendall's Pov//

"I'm gonna prove it to you..." I said once again, more quiet this time. I left James and Carlos to go find Tanja. I think I know where she is. When I got to the parking lot outside the hospital, I jumped into my car and started to drive to the park. I parked it on the side of the road.

I looked around in the park to find her. But I coulden't see her. I turned around to get back to my car, but insted, I ran into someone. We both fell. I got up first and helped the person up.

"I'm so sorry! I-" I looked infront of me and saw that I was talking to Tanja. "Tanja...!" I said. She started to run. I ran after and grabbed her arm, making her stop.

"Let go of me!" she yelled, trying to get out of my grip.

"No. Tanja, stop fighting back!" I grabbed her other arm. She stoped. "Tanja.. You don't hate James, right?" I asked looking into her eyes. She shook her head. "Then, why are you running?"

"I-I'm not mad at James, b-but... I'm mad at.." she didn't finish the sentance. I was confussed. She sighed. "Logan." WHAT! Why's she mad at Logan! What have he ever done to her!

"Why?"

"Because he didn't tell me what happend to James after we went home and Logan went back cause he had forgotten something..." Her voice got weaker and weaker as she looked down at the ground. Is she talking about the man at James' room?

"About the man with the knife?" I asked. She looked up at me again.

"How did you know that?!"

"Eh, it was all over the news this morning! I thought you knew it!" Is she searious?! "Hey, James is freaking out. He thinks you're hating him. Can we get back there and make him happy again?" I smiled. She did to.

We went to my car and hopped in. I drove back to the hospital and went to James' room. He was laying there with his face down in the pillow, and Carlos trying to cheer him up. Logan was there too, with that super funny mustach. I tried to hold the laughter in, but I coulden't. I fell to the floor, laughing til my stomach hurt. I just can't help it!

I looked up to see Logan. He's eyes were... angry. You know, he was angry, but didn't wanna show it. After some minutes of laughing on the floor I stood up. Oh, Tanja and James is hugging! How did I miss that?

"You were laughing..." Carlos said.

"Ho-how did you know I was thinking that?!" I shouted. All of them looked confussed.

"You. Said. It. Out loud." Carlos said confussed.

"Oh... Well, good to see that you're friends again!" It felt like I smiled like an idiot.

There was a knock on the door. We all turned our heads to it. It was dr. Grey. She's still hot!

"Hi. I need to talk to James' family." she said.

"We're his family, sorta." I answered. Dr. Grey nodded.

"Ok, I'm happy to tell you then, that James is aloud to go home tomorrow if he wants to. But then he HAS to be in bed for another week." I didn't even think before I hugged her. Yeah! I know I'm with Jo, but she's just sooooooo hot!

//Carlos' Pov// The Next Day!

Ok, so today James is aloud to go home! Finally! This has been the worst year of my life! But, he's alright. And that's the important thing. So we're about to go get him at the hospital, me and Kendall. Tanja's there helping him pack. And Logan don't wanna go out before the mustach I drawed at him is gone.

We jumped into Kendall's car and he started to drive. We arrived ten minutes later at the hospital. James and Tanja was already standing and waiting for us, so they got into the car and we drived home to the Palm Woods again.

"Nice to get home?" Kendall asked James when we stepped out of the car. He just nodded. Tanja held James around his arm as we walked into the buillding. Jo, Camille, guitarr dude, everybody came running to welcome James back.

"Hey! We've missed you James!" Camille said hugging him. He hugged back.

I don't really know how long Kendall and I was watching as James got tons of hugs from everyone, but finally most of them went back to what they were doning before. He and Tanja started to walk to the elevators.

"Are you two comming?" James asked. I shook my head and saw Kendall doing the same. James nodded and stepped into the elevator with Tanja. Kendall ran to the pool. Probably to find Jo. I turned around to get some Fruit Smackers from the machine, but i bummped into someone.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't see you." I said looking at the girl I bummped into. Her hair was black, really beautiful! She was wearing a black t-shirt, blue jeans, and converses.

"It's okey.. I didn't see you either." she answered smiling. Now I could see her eyes, they were brown. Like, chocolate maybe?

"So what's your name?" I ask.

"I'm Jyoti." she replied. (AN: Jyoti is pronounce Jody) "A-and yours? she asked a little insecure.

"I'm Carlos. I'm in a band called Big Time Rush if you have heard of them." I smiled. "So, are you new here?" She nodded.

"I-I moved in here yesterday.." Did she get more nervous? "I-I'm here to b-become an actress... Bye." she spoke and started to walk towards the elevators.

"J-Jyoti!" I screamed after her. "You need help to, you know, move in." I didn't really know what to say, but she seemed nice so I have to try to spend some time with her. She turned around, with a weak smile on her face.

"Sure."she answered.

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Sorry if it's short! I don't know what to put... I'll try to update as soon as possible. Hope you liked it!

Until next time, BYE!