Hazel's diary [TFiOS]

One month

2nd of Augustus, 2013

Dear diary,

A month passed since Augustus died.

A whole month. And  month I didn't go outside nor visited anyone. I stayed inside my house, my safe place, and had no contact with people outside, unless they came to me. Like Isaac. Isaac visited me multiple times, just to talk, game or comfort me when the memories of Augustus became too much. He's such a sweetheart. And my mom was there the whole time, so that was good. Otherwise I would be a grenade that at some point would blow up. I would leave scars behind, and I don't want that. I want to minimize the scars that I might leave behind in the (near) future. And this refers to my cancer, because maybe, at some point in the future, my body will be immune for the Phalanxifor. And if that happens, I would no longer be here. (unless there is another medicine which actually reacts to the cancer)

And , my mom decided that I do not have to go to Support Group anymore!

I guess she wants me to 'forget' the memories. To think of it as it has never happened.

God damn it, Augustus! Why are you not here?

I'll promise to write something soon again. Promise.

- Hazel