"So what's she like"
"You would know better"
"Tell me...c'mon"
I rolled my eyes and adjusted,meeting up with Carla and Brittany always made my Saturdays crazzzzyyyy.
"She's cool,I wasn't expecting nice,but she is,she has this I'm- nice-but-won't-take rubbish kinda appearance"
"Wow,you haven't even done a week with her and you know all this" Carla teased,adjusting the bottom part of her blue jeans.
"Whatever,how's your boo boo" She creamed with colour.
"He's cool,we are taking it one step at a time" i looked at Brittany as she kept laughing,then she faced Carla and nudged her with her shoulder "c'mon deets"
Carla cleared her throat....I doubt that there was anything to clear,"we haven't yet" I smirked at Brittany shocked face.
"It's been over six months that I got married......what are you waiting for Carla"
"You don't have to have sex with your partner to know if you are committed or not"
Brittany raised up her nose and frowned at me,
Carla continued before I could reply, "i want to get to know him better,sex isn't everything and for now,not possible,got to fear God and practice what i preach" "AMEN!!" I screamed which made Brittany start her loud cracks called laughing.
"What about you"
*******
Silence
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I rose up my head,looking at Carla and Brittany interrogative faces.
"Me???"
"Yes you"
I chuckled "I don't know,you guys know that I'm not into that stuff"
"You need to hangout"
"You need to see someone"
"You need to loosen up"
"You need a man"
"Enough" I screamed a little bit louder than necessary and apologized to the waiter who gave me a warning glare as she passed us.
"I love you both so much,but my private life is private,even to you Carla, i gotta use the restroom"
I stood with two concerned faces following me.
"She hasn't had a guy since her first"
"He must have really broken her heart"
Carla scoffed with a sad face "that would have been better"
Brittany was confused,"he died" Brittany's face crumpled,"wow"
"Yea"
I know I need someone,I'm not stupid,I know I do need to feel good and loved but he's dead....I still remember......whispering to the memories didn't help 'go away, please'.
