She's Not Afraid

Chapter 29

***September 13***

***Drew's pov***

A soft voice singing "Happy Birthday" brought me out of my dreamless sleep slowly.

"What are you doing?" I asked the singer.

"Well its your birthday isnt it?" Harry chuckled, kissing my lips softly.

"I almost forgot." I mumbled sleepily.

"Come on.I made you breakfast." Harry smiled.

"You didnt have to do that." I yawned, sitting up.

"Yes I did." Harry replied, picking me up.

"What are you doing?" I asked as my eyes grew wide and I clung to his bare skin.

"Carrying you." Harry said in a 'duh' tone.

"And why exactly are you doing that?" I questioned, looking him directly in the eyes.

"Because I can." Harry smirked.

"I would probably be mad right now if you werent so smiley." I huffed.

"Come on Drewby,you know you cant be mad at me." Harry smiled cheekily.

"Youre right,I cant." I shrugged.

Once we reached the kitchen, Harry finally set me down.I walked over and sat at one of the barstools to wait for him.

"Close your eyes." Harry smiled.

"Why?" I asked, confused.

"Its a surprise." Harry said.

"Fine." I replied, closing my eyes.

After a moment and a bit of shuffling around,I was told to open my eyes.A variety of different breakfast foods were placed in front of me ad Harry was standing on the other side of the island wearig a huge grin.Harry tapped something behind him and music filled the room.I recognized the soft beat of "Wanted" by Hunter Hayes.

"Harry this is so cute!" I gushed, standing up as he walked towards me.

"I was hoping youd like it." Harry smiled down at me.

"I love it." I smiled back, hugging him.

"Drew...." Harry trailed off.

"Hmm?" I pushed, looking up at him.

"Do you really have to leave?" Harry asked sadly.

"We already talked about this." I sighed, pulling away from the hug.

"You have nothing to go back to." Harry protested.

"Well there isnt much here for me either!" I shot back.

"I can give you more,I swear!We dont have to stay here if you dont want to!" Harry yelled.

"Its not you,its me.Im sorry,I cant stay here." I sighed, turning around to leave.

"But Drew,I love you." Harry mumbled.

"I cant stay here." I repeated, walking upstairs.

"No!We are NOT ending this conversation yet!" Harry yelled, running after me.

"Yes we are bacause I already told you whats going to happen!" I yelled back.

"Drew stop!" Harry said, grabbing my arm and spinning me around to face him.

"Let me go." I threatened, trying to pull away.

"I love you and I never want to lose you.We can run away from all of this mess.I dont care if it means Ill have to leave the band.I just want to be with you." Harry whispered, looking directly into my eyes.

He was comepletely serious.He was willing to give it all up just for me.Why couldnt he just leave it alone?

"Please tell me you wont leave." Harry pleaded.

"Harry,let me go." I spat, looking away.

"Please." Harry pleaded, tightening his grip.

"Harry youre hurting me,let go." I cried, pushing at his hand.

"Please." Harry repeated.

"Harry stop!" I yelled as his grip got tighter, yet again.

"Dont leave." Harry said seriously.

Im not quite sure if he didnt realize what he was doing or if he was pressuring me into staying by hurting me.

"Stop it!Let me go!" I yelled frantically, hoping someone would hear.

"Say youll stay." Harry replied.

"Let go please." I pleaded barely above a whisper.

"No!Youre not going to leave me!" Harry yelled, sending a hand across my face.

I fell to the ground holding my throbbing cheek.I looked up at Harry with pure fear in my eyes.He had NEVER done that.Something pulled Harry out of his trance,whether it was my soft cries or the realization of what he had did, I didnt know.

"Oh God.Im so sorry." Harry gasped, dropping to the floor next to me.

I moved away from his outstreached hand as a wave of pain cross over his face.I found the strength to stand up and ran to my room,closing the door once I was inside.I flung myself on to the bed and held my pillow close to my chest, trying my hardest not to cry.The door opened and shut softly and in a second there were two strong arms wrapped around my torso.I didnt move away from him or get closer,I just stayed there.Still as a stone.

"Im sorry Drew,I dont know what came over me.Please forgive me." Harry pleaded from behind.

I didnt say a word.I stayed completely silent, afraid of what might come out if I spoke.

"Please talk to me." Harry sighed, pulling both of us into a sitting position.

I couldnt take it anymore.I turned around in his arms and buried my face in the crook of his neck.I wrapped my arms around his neck and cried.I dont really know why, but I cried and cried.Ive been holding that in for a while.I needed this.I needed to cry.Cry until I had no tears left.I didnt want to lose him, but I had to.I really had no choice, unless I wanted my baby to be raised by four kidnappers.I said I love Harry.And I think Im finally starting to believe it.Maybe because its the truth.