As soon as I had gotten home, I ran to my bedroom and laid down on my bed. I plugged in my headphones and listened to 'I hate you, I love you' by Gnash ft. Olivia O'Brien on repeat (I suggest you listen to the song while reading this). It literally summed up all my thoughts. All the lyrics, they all describe the relationship I had. I hate him, but I'm still in love with him. As I listen to the song, tears are running down my face, but I don't have the energy to wipe them away. One tear falls right onto my wrist, and I see my bracelet. It has the words 'matters' crossed out. The meaning behind this is that nothing matters, whatever happens in life, it all doesn't matter. Then it hit me, why should I care so much for him when NOTHING MATTERS. The pain I went through and the heart break but I still LOVE him. If nothing matters... then does that mean HE doesn't matter?
