Mickey Salvatore (Discontinued)

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I was a bit worried at first, I wanted some answers from Bonnie about yesterday, but I didn't want to pressure her on the subject. So I asked Bonnie if  I could come over and she was quick to agree to the offer.

So here I was at the Bennett house. I rung the doorbell and almost immediately it was swung open by none other that Bonnie herself. When I saw her appearance I was shocked. I didn't know what to think.

She looked terrible. Her hair was all over the place. She was in the same clothes she wore yesterday, she also looked a bit on edge. Like she was nervous something bad was going to happen to her at any moment.

I didn't want to seem to forward but I couldn't help myself and gave her a hug on the spot. She looked like she had been to hell and back. "Bonnie are you alright, you look terrible?"

I don't know if what I said triggered something but I could see her eyes get glassy and her trying to blink away the tears. "I need to tell you something, but I don't want to tell anybody else. Well at least until the time is right."

I nodded and she pulled me into the house. We ran up to her room and she sat me down on her bed, which was unmade."

"OK so first I thought I would tell you everything that lead up to the situation. Well it was about 4 weeks since I had... you know... sex with Jeremy, and I started to feel a little queasy and lightheaded, then I started to throw up non stop. So I went to the store and took like three pregnancy tests and they all came out positive, so I asked Elena if she could come with me to the school so that we could talk about it. Everything was going fine until these men in black showed up, they started to ask if I knew the Originals or not and if I knew who Klaus Mikaelson was, I refused to answer them so they got mad and I think they may have compelled me to forget what happened next because I can't access the memory."

When she was done I was speechless, she was pregnant, I wanted to say congratulations but I couldn't help feeling the slightest pang of jealousy. Bonnie is going to have a kid and I can never have one, it seemed suspiciously unfair to me, but I don't know why. I had grown familiar with the concept.

"Oh my gosh, so you and Jeremy are going to be parents?"

She nodded grimly.

"Then why are you so sad, don't you want to have kids?"

"Of course I do but not like this, not when so much is going on. I mean I'm risking its existence by even being involved with all this vampire and werewolf stuff."

I nodded, I completely understood. It was hard to accept the fact that your putting someone else's life in danger just by being alive. I knew Elena would agree from experience too.

"So what are you going to do now? Are you planning on telling Jeremy?"

She hesitated, was she really planning on telling him in the first place? Even if she was she couldn't keep it from him forever, it was his kid after all.

"I don't know if I want people to find out just yet, I want to wait until everything sort of dies down. I don't want to tell him when he has so much on his mind already, I mean he's barely keeping up with senior year of high school. I don't want to put even more worries on his head."

"OK, I'll hold everything off until stuff dies down, but don't expect me to not help out even the slightest bit with the pregnancy thing. You're going to need all the help you can get. And the sooner you tell Jeremy the better."

"I really do want to tell him, its just that I don't know if I should, what if he doesn't want the baby?"

I shook my head, she really does worry to much. If I was in Jeremy's position, I would be ecstatic that a little piece of me and Bonnie would be running around soon enough.

"Oh come on Bonnie, you and I both know that would never happen, Jeremy is just to excepting to try and say he doesn't want the baby. You just have to have a little faith in him."

She nodded, visibly starting to relax at that thought. She leaned back into the chair and started to rub her now flat stomach, soon enough she would be waddling around with her huge belly and her ankles will be bigger than tennis balls. Somehow, I wasn't sure if is was picturing Bonnie anymore, was it possible that I was picturing me? It seemed so absurd, but I couldn't help it.

I wanted to wake up one morning and start to puke my brains out only to find out there was a child growing inside of me. I wanted to waddle around the house and complain about how none of my clothes fit anymore. I wanted to look in the mirror and call myself fat, even though gaining weight was important when pregnant.

I wanted all those things and it made me undoubtedly miserable that, that would never be me, I will never have children and it crushed me inside.

"Uh... Hey.. Mackenzie are you OK? You look a bit feverish.

I snapped out of my thoughts and proceeded to talk with Bonnie about how she was going to break it to Jeremy. I tuned that out though, until there was nothing left but me and my own thoughts again. If I were able to have children I would want Elijah to be my partner to have kids with.

"Yeah, I'm fine I was just thinking about stuff"

she raised her eyebrows. "What kind of stuff? Should I even dare question if it's about you not being able to get pregnant. If it is-"

I shook my head,"of course it isn't, I've already accepted that fact, even though it would be nice to be able to get pregnant I shouldn't worry myself so much."

"Alright, enough about me. Have you gone to see the doctor yet?"

She shook her head, "but I know I'm probably about five weeks along now."

"Okay, well although I did come here to see how you were doing I was wondering If you could help me with something? See, I kind of have this date with Elijah and I need some help with picking out a outfit since I  have literally no fashion sense at all."

"Wait... So you're telling me you got a date with the hottie noble man Elijah Mikaelson."

"Yeah, It's complicated. He sort of has feelings for me and I have mixed feelings for him. My brothers told me to stay away from the Originals but I can't help but feel a strong pull towards him and I guess the feeling is mutual."

She nodded. "Well all feelings shall be uncovered soon enough. Right now we should take a trip to the mall, since I'm sure you don't have anything else you could wear at your house."

And with that she got her coat and we took off in my car. Hopefully this date will finally give me some clarification on how I feel about this guy, maybe I will learn to love again.

Hello my fellow readers, I know I'm probably dead to you all know but I'm kind of in a tough situation here, I'm doing all of this on my tablet and since my house has no WiFi it kind of sucks so I'm just waiting to publish this. Also, I'm sorry if this is short, I had little to no inspiration on this chapter and it was kind of a filler anyway. Just so you know the shopping and the date will come next chapter so hopefully it will be long enough. And as I've said before I really need some inspiration and I feel like I'm at the point where I'm being forced to update so I think until I get some inspiration I wont update. You guys should definitely help me out too, I know I might be asking for to much but if anyone wants to make me a decent cover be my guest. OK, this is the end of a very long boring A/N but I felt that I needed to get everything out before I left for a while. I'm not giving up on this story and I am determined to finish it but I think I need to gain some inspiration first. comment what you think please, and vote too because that will help more people see my story so comment and vote and I love you all and if I get a comment relating to some plot ideas I will dedicate my next chapter to you! I love you guys bye, stay fresh ;)
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