In My Dreams

Let it go

I feel sick to my stomach. Why can't I find this girl?
I grab my laptop and get on Facebook. I click on Nicole Wesman and go to her previous posts. Of course she deleted it. I hit the search bar and type in Amy Johnson. A number of people pop up but they don't live anywhere in the area and none of them look like the girl I saw.

I grab my phone and call Heather. She answers on the first ring.

"Hello?" She answers.
"Hey who is Amy Johnson?" I ask her.
"She's one of those popular girls that hangs out with Aaron, why?" She asks.
"Because I can't find anything about her." I tell her.
"What do you mean?" She asks me suspiciously.
"Nicole said she went with us to elementary but I don't see her in the yearbook." I tell her.
"Maybe she didn't take any pictures, look her up on Facebook." Heather says reassuring me.
"I tried!" I practically yell.
"Okay, I'll send you a link to her page than." Heather says.
"Hurry please." I'm so impatient.

I hang up on Heather and lay down in my bed. A million thoughts are going through my mind. I feel like it's a big puzzle and I don't even have the first piece. I don't know where to even begin to start.

*bing*

I look at my phone and it's a message from Jason.
"Hey what are you doing?"
I don't want to talk to him right now. I wouldn't be in this situation if it wasn't for him.
"Did you talk to Amy?" I ask him.
"No, I didn't see her today." I roll my eyes. Of course he didn't.
As I'm replying to him I get a text from Heather. I erase my message to Jason and click on the link Heather provided.

Content not found

I refresh the page. It says the same message. I text Heather and tell her what it says. She replies back with "maybe she blocked you."

Why would she block me? I don't understand. I don't even know her! Although, Nicole swears we know each other and Heather didn't deny we knew each other. And Jason seems to know her too, something just doesn't feel right.

I remembered I didn't text Jason back. I go to his messages but I already had one from him. It reads: "Look please don't let her get to you, everyone is already over it. Who cares what people think. Why let it bother you?" He does have a point. Maybe I should just let it go. I just feel people over reacted.

I text him back feeling annoyed; "People are mean, words do hurt Jason. I don't want to be apart of anyone's gossip, that's not who I am. But I'll let it go for now."

He doesn't reply. Maybe he's busy. Maybe I should let this whole Amy thing slide. I don't want to seem obsessed with her, but I am suspicious.

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After dinner, I lay down in my room watching videos on YouTube. I started with Taylor Swift music videos and now I'm watching magic tricks. You never start and end in the same area on YouTube, funny how that happens. I still haven't heard back from Jason. I don't want to bother him. As if on cue my phone starts to vibrate, I see Jason is calling me. 

"Hello?" I nervously answer.
"Hey, this sounds really weird and I'm not a stalker but look outside your window." I can hear the smile in his voice.
I smile and run to my window.
I see him standing there and waving to me. He looks so goofy. I can't help but blush.
"Come outside." I hear his voice in my ear completely forgetting he was on the phone.
I hang up and do a quick check in the mirror to make sure I look okay. And I do.

I go outside and he's standing against his car. It really suits him. I walk up to him smiling and he gives me a hug. "I'm so sorry about today." He whispers in my ear.
I pull back and look him in the eyes and in a low voice I say, "it's okay, honestly."
"I have something for you." He says, sounding nervous.
"What?" I ask him sounding excited.
He goes to the driver side and leans in the car to grab something from the back seat. Nice ass, I say to myself.
He pulls out the most beautiful white roses I've ever seen. "Do you like them?" He shyly asks me.
"I love them!" I say as I smile down staring at them.
"Well can I ask you something?" He kind of looks worried.
"What?" I ask him. With the look in his face I have no idea what it could be.
"Will you be my girlfriend?" He looks into my eyes and I can't help but lean up and kiss him. It was long hard passionate kiss. The butterflies are dancing my stomach.
I pull away and say, "Of course I'll be your girlfriend."

My world feels so complete. Like this is what was missing in my life. This very moment is something I always dreamed of, when you have this connection you can't explain but you know it's real. I've never felt anything like it. I don't ever want it to go away.