It Runs In Our Code

all these things i've lost

chasing you down our street
my worn red cap perched on your head
no matter how fast i ran
i could never quite catch up

laughing like we'd lost our minds
over nothing, some dumb joke
we could turn anything into hilarity
and we didn't care how stupid we looked

hiding under my bed together
you held me until the shouting ceased
for hours we stayed that way
and we woke up in a new world

all these things i've lost

putting off our homework to sit and do nothing
well, nothing with you was quite something
i didn't know then how i would lose everything
now i'd give anything to do nothing again

lying on your bed in the unborn hours
letting your fingers toy with my hair
letting it all spill out to you
the happiest i ever felt was lying there

teasing each other about our crushes
though fleeting, they brought us joy
maybe it was in our blood because
we were always falling for the same boy

all these things i've lost

sneaking down to the hidden creek
sharing the break of dawn between us
the water cooled our skin
and the trees kept our secrets

wearing shirts from your wardrobe
i missed you when you were gone
draped in the warm smell of home
you gave me the strength to carry on

sitting on the bathroom floor with you
i was shaking when you pulled me back from the edge
grasped me tight and dried my eyes
as we sat on the cold stone floor

all these things i've lost

finding a photograph tucked under your pillow
sometimes i heard you say his name at night
it wasn't hard to figure it out
put together the pieces and see the full picture

pulling a scrunched up, scrawled note from the bottom of your bag
promising things that i'd never have
i was blinded by jealousy
but i should have read between the lies

seeing you cry for the very first time
you broke down in my arms
i promised that things would get better
i should have been a better liar

all these things i should have told you

realising it was no longer a game
i was running to the creek, yelling your name
i realised that you were never to blame
if you knew what would happen, would you have gone all the same?

speeding downstream towards the spot
the place we'd go when we wanted to disappear
i should have told you that I was always there
perhaps it would have made it easier to bear

all these things i should have told you

spotting your red shirt amongst the green
soon it would be time to come clean
if i could rewind you'd still be here with me
for it was our secrets and lies that hung you from that tree