As I Lay Here In Silence

Once I knew, It became.

*8 years ago*
I'm in the library with Thomas. Me and him are sitting on a small square table. He's sitting there drawing on his phone while I just sit there looking at his round pale face. I wonder what he's thinking of. I look at him draw a face. He keeps messing up. I find it very cute. He makes a scrunched up face when he messes up on the second eye. I look at him thinking if he knows what I'm thinking. I'm thinking of him. Of him being mine. Of him. All of him.

                 *10 minutes later*
"Hara. Hey if you're bored just play a game......oh. Your phones dead hahah lol." Thomas says looking at me while laughing. I look at his cute smile and his pink blushed cheeks. "Nah I'm fine. It's almost 4 o'clock anyway." As I said that I look at the clock, about 8 minutes left. I look at Thomas back. I wanted to ask him a simple question but it wasn't as simple. "What would you do if you liked one of your closest friends?" I couldn't say that. I put my head down to only drift off into my imagination.
                                 ~
"Hara. Haraaaa. HARA!!" I wake up a little drowsy to his voice.
"What is it."
"It's almost 4:00. Don't you have to leave? Won't your mom get mad at you?"
"Ah probably.  Well whatever. Wake me up when you leave." I say that as I lay my head back down.
"Hara. Why aren't you going?"
"Hm. Uh. Uh. You want a reason?"
"Yah."
"Oh. Umm. I guess........well. Um. Uh. I don't know........"
"......thank you." He said that in a very low voice. So low that if I dropped a pin I wouldn't hear him. I put my head down trying to cover my super red face. I chuckle a little. I look up at him staring at me. He turns away very quickly with his ears a little red. I'm shocked.
"Hey Thomas. Your phones ringing."
"Oh yah it is. I think it's my dad." As he said that he picks up his phone and answers it.
"Hello? Dad. Okay."
That's a sign. He's going to leave.
We put up our chairs and walk out of the library to the back door where you could exit the school.
"Hey. Why are you so quiet today?"
I wondered the same thing as he said. Why wasn't I talking. Why am I like this?
"Oh uh cause of um I'm hungry..."
"Oh okay."
"Yah..."
"Oh yah also, Hara, I need you to know that if I'm ever mad at you than you'll have to give me a few days to yah know. Forgive you." I look at him in wonder that why he's telling me this? Well it doesn't matter. I'm happy to talk to him as long as I can. As he goes to his car I call him out.
"Hey Thomas!"
"What?"
"I love you!"
I say that in a sarcastic voice so it's not obvious.
"Haha. Okay Hara. You love everyone!" As he said that he entered the car.
He's never said "I love you" to me. He's said it to all our friends but me. I don't know why, but as the days go by I get more and more curious as to why my heart is racing like it is now. I enter my car and hear the lecturing from my mom. The car engine turns on and we head home.

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Oh my god! WHATTT. Hara whatttt.
Okay I'm like shocked. Lol
Well for now......

Sayonara!