Maybe Dreams Aren't Meant To Come True

Chapter 1

I look at the audience while my hand trembles.

This is it.

I see older women and teenagers eyebrows raise with intensity.

Their eyes wide, anticipating the near future.

His future, her future... my future.

My hand trembles in Natalie's and Josh's as theirs do the same.

My life in the hands of America.

My dreams all up to people I have never met.

"This is a moment you've all been waiting for," Simon announces.

"Who will win The Xfactor?

Well you guys voted..."

"Natalie Drake..."

Suspense fills the room as her hands shake even harder.

"You're safe!" He grins.

She instantly screams with delight and gives me and Josh a quick hug.

Now, only holding Josh's hand,I squeeze hard and close my eyes.

This is my dream...I can't go home...

"I'm sorry..." Simon's tone monotoned.

"Jessica Rose, you did not make the top two."

I drop to my knees and look at the crowd as they burst into deep laughter, throwing their heads back.

I look at Natalie and Josh who are pointing at me with eyes watering from laughing so hard.

All the judges, the hosts, laughing at me.

Laughing at my failure.

"Jessica wake up." The crowd says in unison. What?

"Jessica wake up." Now louder than before.

"Wake up!" They. screech.

I open my eyes to find my dad shaking me to wake up.

"Another nightmare?" He asks me with his lips pouted and worry over his face.

I nod my head and touch my face, noticing I was crying. I quickly wipe my tears and sit up to meet my dad.

"Jessica, are you sure you don't want to talk about it?" He asks, grabbing my hand.

I've been having the same nightmare for two weeks straight.

Two weeks since I was canceled off the Xfactor.

Two weeks since my dreams were crushed.

I haven't told my dad because he'll just give me a sympathy talk, which I don't want to hear.

"No." I groan, hoping he will take the hint for him to leave.

"Okay, well I have to go to work. Call me if you need anything, love you." He says his eyes never meeting mine and voice filled with sorrow.

I nod and he leaves the room.

I wait till I hear the garage door close and force myself out of bed.

I avoid looking in mirrors, afraid to see the reflection.

I practically lift my leg up with my hands, forcing myself to go to the kitchen to eat because I haven't eaten in days.

Maybe even a week.

I get a bowl and grab Captain Crunch and pour it to the tip top of the bowl.

I swing the refrigerator door open and snatch the milk.

The more I'm not in my bed crying, the more furious I get.

Why wasn't I good enough?

I pour my milk in the bowl till I see it though the cereal, and grab a big spoon.

I need to eat this...all of it.

The phone rings, but I am in no mood to talk to anyone so I let it go to voicemail.

"Hello Jessica..."

His voice is low and it sounds so familiar.

"It's Simon Cowell and I have some good news for you."

My fingers slip the grip of my cereal bowl and it shatters between my feet.

I run to my home phone and quickly answer.

"H-Hi Simon." I stutter.

"Jessica? Jessica Rose?" He surprisingly asks.

"Yes, sorry I was...uhm making breakfast." Which isn't a total lie.

"Well, I have some good news! I want to give you another chance at your dream." I can picture the smirk on his face.

"You what?" I ask in shock.

Am I going on the Xfactor again?

"I'm going to sign you!" His voice rising a couple octaves.

"Oh my god Simon! You are? I can't believe this! Thank you so so so much! I can't believe-" He cuts me off,

"Calm down, calm down. I am only doing this because I believe in you.

Meet me at my office tomorrow at noon. Don't be late, we have a lot to talk about." He states and hangs up right after, not giving me a chance to thank him again.

Am I getting another chance to my dream?

I start to run to my room, to go on twitter and post about this exciting news, but I step on my broken bowl and cut my foot.

"Ow!" I yelp.

I get a towel and broom and quickly clean up my mess, not noticing the smile that takes over my face.

After I clean up my mess, I run to the my room and jump on my bed.

I get on twitter, not wanting to totally post the good news because what if it doesn't end up well? I decide on a simple tweet,

"Got the best news today !! :)"

I instantly get retweets and theories of what the news was.

I don't know how I got one million followers from just being on Xfactor, some celebrities don't even have that much.

I text my dad my amazing morning and he replies minutes later,

"That's amazing! I'm so happy for you! Celebratory dinner tonight! I can't believe this!!"

I'm not looking in the mirror, but I'm pretty sure I'm grinning ear to ear and blushing.

I decide to take a shower for dinner and for tomorrow,

I smell like a trash can.