Behind Closed Doors • Eazy-E & Aaliyah

Behind Closed Doors [20]

-Aaliyah's POV-

I asked my brother Rashad to come over and keep me company since Eric is in New York. I'm so tired of being lonely. I'm in a painful, unhealthy relationship and I want to just say fuck it and walk away but something is holding me back. I want to hate Eric but I can't. What is it? What's holding me from breaking up with him?

Is it because I'm in love with him? Or is it because I have a baby by him?

I definitely know that I'm not trying to hold on to him because I need him. I don't need him or his money and I don't need to live in his house. Now I may not have as much as him but I got money. Far from broke.

Rashad arrived thirty minutes later.

"What's going on sis? Have you been crying?" he asked after he walked in.

"No," I lied.

"Don't lie to me. I can tell you've been crying because your eyes are red and puffy."

"Rashad trust me, I wasn't crying. I was just sneezing my ass off."

He looked at me.

"Aaliyah. Please. Stop lieing. Now why were you crying?" he asked.

I felt myself choking up and my eyes were watering. I hate crying. Especially in front of my family.

"I'm good," I lied while tears ran down my cheeks.

He gave me a hug and I broke down.
I couldn't hold it in. I was hurt.

"What's wrong sis? Tell me."

"Eric," I said while I cried.

"Eric? What's going on? What did he do?" he asked.

"He's treating me like dirt. He doesn't spend time with me, he stays out late, comes home early in the morning and when I try to talk to him he brushes me off. I know what the problem is. He doesn't love me anymore!"

"Don't say this. That's not true. You know Eric loves you " he said.

"No he doesn't Rashad! He don't love me no more."

"Did he say that he doesn't love you anymore?" he asked.

"He doesn't have to. Actions speak louder than words. Our relationship is shit now. He's not into me, he's over me. He doesn't love me anymore so I need to just pack my shit, take Dominick, and call it truce."

"Well do what's best for you LiLi. I hate to say I told you so, but our parents and I have begged you to stay away from Eazy. He's not boyfriend material. He's a player. I hate that you had to find out this way but the hard way is the best way."

"He's cheating on me."

"I'm so sorry sis."

"I hate him," I said in a hateful tone.

"No you don't. You don't hate him, you hate his ways. His behavior."

"No. Rashad. I hate him. I want him out of my life."

"Well if that's how you feel about him-"

I cut him off.

"I decided to write a song and I want to dedicate it to him. This is what I came up with so far. Do you like it?"

I handed him the lyrics and he began to read.

"How could the one I gave my heart to, break my heart so bad. How could the one who made me happy, make me feel so sad. Wont somebody tell me, so I can understand. If you love me, how could you hurt me like that," he read.

"Do you like it?" I asked.

"This is beautiful LiLi. I can't wait to hear the rest."

Tears started to form in my eyes again.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"He don't love me anymore. That's what's wrong."