waiting

3.

My mom always told me to live life and don't look back. So that's what I did, he had a girlfriend but you only live once. I walked up to him look him straight in the eye I poured out all my feeling about him right onto his feet. The look he gave me broke my heart, knowing this pain. He didn't know what to do, he confessed that he had feeling for me too but he had feeling for Haley. So I said
"There you go. Now you have to decide what you want to do. " then turned around walked away with tears in my eyes.
Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry. Get your self together. It's not going to happen. No. Don't cry.
Walking out of the bathroom puffy eyes not sure what to feel. Now I get to go to my next class sit there like a flower dying from the inside out. The absolute worse is when people walk up to you asking if your okay when they know you're NOT OKAY! The next couple days.. weeks.. they were awkward. Really awkward, we didn't talk, we tried not to stand next to each other, not to look at each other. I looked at him when he wasn't paying attention in class but that was about it. I missed it. I missed my weird flirty and talking and being able to life live without looking back.