"Why can't I ever just let myself properly enjoy things, why can't I ever just be in the moment, ya know?
I know today is brilliant... It's sunny... we're in the fast world... we just ordered a 19 dollar sundae, it looked delicious, but all I can ever think about is my rubbish face! I'm obsessing over it. I mean, I'm turning 21 soon, and, this is how good my face is ever going to get?
This is it.
It's all downhill from here...
I was hoping Puberty would do a better job but no. Puberty did a good job with you, you used to be really awful to look at."
Finally here was the sundae that literally cost a fortune. "Incredible! Claire, don't you think this is incredible?" I grabbed the small ceramic kettle of Hot Chocolate Sauce and began draping it onto the sundae, "What an incredible sundae. Isn't it just mind-blowing that we actually get to eat this?"
I heard Claire sigh from the other side of our small café table. "Josh, there's something I've got to talk to you about..." When I heard this, I felt my stomach drop. It's never good when someone you are in a relationship with says that! When you hear that, you better mentally prepare you brain for whatever thing might come your way.
I glanced at her and slowly set the ceramic kettle down, "Oh... no, no." I muttered knowingly as I looked at her. She wasn't making eye contact with me, she just kept staring at the sundae like it would spontaneously combust into flames. I slumped my shoulders and kept looking at her," No, you don't..."
"I think it's time for us to break-up."
I leaned back in my small café chair and sighed. "Oh... oh, well, that's bad." I said in attempts to try and make it sound like I really didn't know this was coming. But, it just made me sound like I didn't really care, when I truly did. I looked back at her, squinting my eyes to keep the sun out of them, and watched her face become completely serious. "I, I just think we've drifted apart."
I pouted my lip a bit, feeling defeated, a grabbed one of the spoons the waitress had left for us. "This isn't good at all..." I said, defeat lurking in my voice, as I began taking a small bite from the expensive sundae.
"Also," she began, a bit more quickly spoken now, "you're gay."
She looked at me as if she knew something I didn't. "What?" I stuttered. I set down the spoon and leaned back in my chair. "N-no I'm not..." I said in a quiet voice, my voice sounding like a little boys that's obviously lying.
We sat there in an awkward silence for a few seconds that literally felt like hours. Than, she finally said, with complete certainty this time, "Josh, you're probably Gay." I gritted my teeth together and looked down at the sundae, "I'm not." Claire frowned slightly before she began fondling with her own sundae spoon. "I mean... we can still be friends," she quickly glanced at me, than back at her spoon. "If you'd like. I mean, it wouldn't really be that different would it? We'd could still hang out and all." She looked back at me, and now, I was finally looking back at her. She looked so certain that I was Gay, but I wasn't... was I?
The corner of my mouth twitched as it tried to turn into a grimace, but I held it back and hissed in annoyance and defeat, "This 19 dollar sundae's suddenly pretty fucking humiliating." But, I still took one last bite.
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Thanks for reading you guys! I really hope you enjoyed it, and sorry for it being a tad short... I promise the next chapters will be longer.
The two on the side is Josh and Claire. :)
