I'm Here (doctor and clara)

Loves complicated

Chapter 10- loves complicated

Clara's Pov

"Are you sure your alright"

"Perfect, never felt better"

doctor walked forward and grabbed me starting to kiss her on the lips he raised me off of my feet and wrapped my legs around his waist his arms were around her waist pulling them as close as the could be together. I had my arms around the doctors neck as he spun so that I was leaning against the consul of the Tardis placing me down but still holding me. The Tardis made a strangle noise as if to say no. So he picked me up and carried me through the long corridors of the twisting Tardis. They soon reached the doctors bedroom the both entered My legs still squeezed around the doctor waste and arms around his neck. I looked up around the room when the doctor moved onto kissing at my neck when suddenly i froze slumped lower down as i was pushed against the door still in the doctors arms. i whispered "stop"

he replied "no i don't want to"

i spoke up this time and again said "stop" still starring across the room.t

The doctor replied "no i never want to stop doing this"

final he did stop to see what i was staring at when i didn't kiss him back this time he turned and put me slowly on the floor letting go of me "hello river" he said very guiltily. We both stood there being stared down by river. When finally she spoke "what the hell are you doing" the doctor looked to afraid to speak.

I spoke first putting the blame on me "it was my fault, i made him do it, i lead him on, it was all my fault, don't blame him, I'm so sorry"

she turned and starred at me then said "stop lying he wanted this as much as you was it you who was saying 'no i don't want to, no i never want to stop doing this with you'"

i couldn't reply because it was true i looked up at the doctor who looked like a child had just be caught breaking a window. There was so much tension in the room i could feel there was a dozen things they wanted to say to one another but not when i was there

"i'm so sorry shall i just leave"

river replied quickly " yes i think you should go"

but at the same time the doctor choked "no stay please stay"

so turned to the door and walked but just stood outside and slid down the wall not to be rude and ease drop, just because i didn't think i would be able to walk anywhere. There was no talking in the room yet they were probably waiting for me to get out of ear shot then river half shouted half cried

"how could you do this"

"Im sorry im so sorry"he cried back

"Was it her fault as she said did she lead you on"

He quietly replied "no"

"Was this the first time"

"Yes" in the same tone

"So how did it start"

"What the kissing"

"No the universe yes the kissing"

"I was scarred not for me for her i thought she was hurt so i thought it would be right to kiss her, anyway i don't see what the problem is tell me how many men have you kissed that weren't me?"

"Yes but its not the same"

"How" he was shouting now

" i didn't fall in love with them men i was doing it to get what i wanted, and i only pecked them on the lips, i didn't eat there face"

O my god did she just say fall in love with them, the doctors not in love with me.

"You cant help who you love, you taught me that my perfect sycopath build since birth for one purpose to kill me"

What, i expected him to deniy it, i didn't want to hear anymore of this so I got up and draged myself to the consul room.

Around 5 minuets later the doctor ran in followed by river holding a gun at both of us. Wow that escalated quickly.

"Stop" the doctor shouted "why are you this angry"

"I suppose its because" she broke down into tears "do you love her more than me?"

When she said the both are faces burnt a deep red. And i needed to be away from all of this i turned and said "please land i need to go"

His atention was now on me "no its ok don't worry"

"No" i replyed "take me home now, well where ever, i don't care just land i need to get out" i said with tears running down my face so he turned and flicked a few switches landing the Tardis with little fuss, outside my house i ran straight out and up to my room. Were i fell asleep with tears crawling down my face.

I woke up and sat in my room, was the doctor.

"Im sorry, im so sorry" he said to me

"No im sorry i bet she hates me"

"Yeah but so would any wife who just found out his husbands cheating on them with is someone they know and someone they trust."

"But we had meet only a few times"

"Never the right time"

"So when we meet her next she will remember this right?"

"Yeah, thats ok" he smiled weakly

"When you were in the bedroom alone talking to her she said something i just want to know if its true"

"Why were listening"

"Sorry but i couldn't go anywhere i was froze not to listen just, because i felt so bad and guilty my legs stopped working" he smiled at me laughing a little "anyways she said 'i didn't fall in love with them, what did she mean fall in love with them?"'

"I tried to fight it but i cant, i have fallen i love with you I'm so sorry , i cant help it."

What did he just say i can't believe he loves me i just thought he was kissing me because we were happy to be back not with any meaning.

After a long pause he finaly said

"can we stop talking about it please"

"One more question just before i left she asked "do you love her more than me?, i thought you were talking about someone else who"

"No we were talking about you"

"O"

"Do you want to know what i answered?"

"I don't really know"

He lend forward and kissed me as he whispered "you" repeatedly on my lips when we pulled apart he said "you".