Youtube Love ➳ Oli White X Reader

Come round

Slight trigger? I'll warn you before. It's cyber bullying, Incase you get triggered by that and suicide talk m
Y/N POV

It had been around a month since me and Oli had fought. I had been at my apartment the whole time, hardly leaving at all. But I had a reason to leave today. I needed to buy a pregnancy test. I had  been having sickness, often and been having periods of light headiness.

"Come over?" I text Joe, I would have text Caspar if he hadn't been with Oli. I  needed Joe's support with this.

"Be there in five" Joe replied. I inhaled a deep breath before unlocking my door. I was just wearing some leggings and a baggy jumped. Minutes later I heard my door open.

"Whats up?" Joe asked, shutting the door behind him.

"I think I'm pregnant." I whispered, before face planting my bed, sighing.

"Is it Oli's?" Joe asked.

"Not it's Caspars Joe, of course it is." I snapped.

"Sorry." I sighed again. He nodded slightly, obviously shocked by my outburst.

"Want me to go get a test?" Joe whispered, patting my back. I nodded

"Be back soon." He said, before leaving. I decided to check my Twitter as I hadn't been on it in a few days. After looking at my mentions I regretted it.

-TRIGGER-
"Slag"
"You didn't deserve him"
"KYS (kill yourself)"
"Drink bleach"

-Trigger over-
I couldn't read anymore. I felt the tears well up in my eyes, before slowly racing down my cheeks. I walked into the bathroom, locking the door behind me. I placed my hands on the sink, before placing my head on there too. Glancing in the mirror, I sighed. I looked awful. I had dark bags u dear my eyes, tear stained cheeks and I was really pale. I regretted everything. I regretted meeting Y/F/M/Y, I regretted talking to him, I regretted everything that had happened. I loved Oli. I knew that. I still do.
"Y/N! I'm back." Joe called. I exited the bathroom.
"Are you okay?" He asked, concerned.
"I'm just scared, that's all." I lied.
"Oh, okay. Have you been online recently?" He asked.
"No why?" I lied again, I had been doing a lot of that recently.
"Just about Oli, he's been posting some pictures with another girl. That's all."
"Oh." I muttered, I hadn't checked his account. How had he moved on so fast, I thought he loved me. Obviously not. Who would ever love me. (You're all beautiful and perfect ❤️)
"You ready?" Joe asked, handing me the test, I nodded before going into the bathroom. After I finished I came out. 5 minutes. I had to wait five minutes to find out if my life will be changed. I began to pace around the room. What will I do if it's positive. I can't bring a child up my own. I'd need help. Thoughts raced around my mind and before I knew it, it was time to check the test. I grabbed it before spinning it over.

It was.....