Somebody That I Used To Know

Chapter 2: Surprises and not surprises

I got home and went straight down the hall, up the stairs, and into my room. I remember when they had this built. It was just 6 months ago, when I first started cutting, starving myself, and thinking of suicide. I mean of course now I plot my own death 12 times a day, eat once a month or a little more, and cut every other day. When mom found out that I did all that, she didn't want to deal with it, so she built me my own little home away from home. It's literally just a normal house with a 20 foot hallway leading to a single room and adjoining bathroom with a kitchen and living room under it.

I set my bag on the foot of my bed and my clarinet on the chair where my music stand is, then grabbed my make up and a dress and headed to the bathroom.

Once I finished getting dressed and ready, I texted Naomi.

I'm taking you to the mall. Before you ask, I don't know when we'll be home but don't bring any clothes because I'll just buy us whatever we need as the days go on.
-Missinghimtodeath

I shoved my phone in my purse and grabbed my keys before heading to the living room. When I caught sight of mom in the kitchen, I got a sinking feeling.

"Hey mom, I need money. I'm going on a trip and I don't know when I'll be back." I said while grabbing water out of the fridge.

"Here." She handed me a silver credit card, and I put it in my wallet before walking to the door.

"Well uhm... Thanks I guess" I said, halfway out the door.

"Whatever" she choked out before I shut the door and headed to the car.

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I was only two roads down from my house when I felt the burning in my eyes. I pulled into the empty parking lot of Emma's Diner. I remember when I used to go there with Anhony. We had so many dates there. Everything was okay when he was here. Why did he have to leave?...

Suddenly, my thoughts were interrupted by my phone buzzing and playing Bossy. I didn't even look at the number before answering.

"Hello?..." I answered in a shy, depressing voice. There was a pause before the other end of the line made a noise, and I wiped my tears during that pause.

"M-Monica? Is.... Is that you?" Oh my god. It was him. None other then the man I needed most. The man who would help me through this. The man I loved. Anthony.

"A-Anthony?... W-where'd you go? Why didn't you call? Why did you leave? Where are you? Are you okay? Do you n-"

"Shhhh Monica it's okay. I'll answer your questions later. Are you busy?" He asked, sounding extremely worried.

"I wa-" I cut myself off. "No. No I'm not busy. I'm at Emma's."

"Really?" I could hear his smile. "Perfect" then he remembered I'm not okay. "I'll uh... I'll be right there. 10 minutes?"

That's exactly enough time for me to go to Naomi's and back. "Yeah that works."

"Okay well.... Bye.... I lo- ....I mean uh... I'll see you in a bit." He stammered, obviously afraid to say he loves me after he'd left me.

"I love you too, Anthony." I choked out before hanging up.

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I knocked on Naomi's door and was greated by her mom.

"Hey is Naomi there?" I asked with a fake smile on.

"Naomi" she called up the stairs as I entered the house.

"Oh no that's okay Mrs. Wolf. I'll go upstairs to her if that's okay." Another fake smile.

"Yeah of course" she smiled. It's sad that I can't do that anymore. Smile, I mean. Not genuinely at least. Not after everything that's happened. Not since the voices started and never stopped.

I walked up to Naomi's room and entered after a quick knock.

"Naomi. Code black." I stated calmly as I walked across her room and sat on her bed.

"What?" She asked with a slight chuckle, thinking it was a joke. Then she turned around and caught sight of my face. "Oh. My. Fuck. Are you serious?!"

"I'm meeting him at Emma's in 5 minutes. If that's okay with you, I mean." I said shyly.

"OF COURSE ITS O-FUCKING-KAY WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU STILL DOING IN MY HOUSE?! GO GET You SOME!" She said as she shoved me out of her house.

"Well okay then" I said to myself after she shut the door. I climbed into my car and drove back. It was only a 3 minute drive, and I was so tired that I fell asleep in the car while I was waiting for him to get there and started dreaming instantly.

"Maybe I should go..." He said sadly.

No, i screamed in my mind.

"Maybe you should" I replied, voice cracking as I turned away from him so he wouldn't see the tears rolling down my face. All of a sudden, I was turned back around and lips crashes against mine. I moved my lips against them, not wanting to escape this feeling of complete safeness. Of completeness and beauty in itself. I continued moving my lips against his until I pulled away.

"I-I mean... Don't l-leave babe... I-I need you." I stammered.

"Baby I could never leave you. You're my princess. My whole world and more. The only reason I would ever leave you is for your own good." He said sincerely, looking into my eyes with both hands on either side of my face."I love you more than anything." He kissed my forehead and we fell asleep cuddling.