The Preachers Daughter

Needed Me

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All my life lies after lies deceit after deceit

I look in the mirror to see what I've become. I dip my hand in the water and splash it all over my face

I sigh

I pick up the kitchen knife and I examine it then I look back in the mirror

I take the knife to my hair and chop it
I watch as it slowly falls to the floor just as slowly as my life is falling apart

I open the door and step out

" Ok we--- You cut you---- " Senjai ask when I side eye her

She walks over to me and puts a hand on my shoulder

I instantly shake it off

" don't ---- don't try and be a mother to me now you had the chance " I say through gritted teeth

She gulps and lower her hands to her side

" Ok I'm going to take you to Jamie's house " she says before walking away with her head hung low

I feel like I'm being to mean but she deserves this treatment it's her fault everything is her fault why Trey is dead why August is in the hospital

I sigh as I run my hand through my now short hair

I pick up blue

I walk out and get into the car

Silence all the way there

Once we reach our destination I get out and open the front door too see

Chris , Kid , Maya , Dajai , & The doctor from the hospital

" Welcome home Alana" Dajai says walking up to me hugging me

I don't respond
I just drop blue on the floor and she runs off somewhere

" Oh... Ok..... You cut your hair ....... " she steps back and smiles a weary smile

" why is he here ?" I ask I ask pointing to the doctor

" He's..... He's your brother " Senjai says

I scoff

" total shocker " I say rolling my eyes

" Aye don't do that ok?" Dajai says " Your mom went through a lot of hell for both of you guys "

" whatever " I say walking up the stairs into a guest room and locking the door behind myself

What has my life become I was just another P.K wanting to get out of my boring life routine now everything is falling apart. At times like this I wish I was still at church sitting in the front row listening to the message I was happy but now my life is just fucked up completely. I just wish things could be like they use to be I really do. I miss having my dad around even tho he wasn't my dad and he was over protective and even tho he was messing with miracle I sill wouldn't care I would still love him regardless. If she had just stayed away .

Knock Knock
Someone knocks on my door

I walk over and unlock and see the doctor from the hospital

" What Do you want " I ask

" I have a name not like you would care even tho were brother and sister " he says lookin me over

I scoff

" No we have the same mother were not brother and sister ok Senjai was probably hoeing around when she had you " I say sitting on my bed

" first off leave our you heard me out mother alone ok No she didn't have me because she was hoeing around she had me because she was raped your father let his friend do a train on her while she was sleep so you know what  " he pauses "  she didn't think abortion was right so You know what you blame her for everything falling apart but half of it isn't her fault so lay off her " he finishes

I gulp I didn't even know any of this I didn't even to think what she went thru just to save me and my brother

" I'm sorry ok it's just a lot of things going on right now " I say

" Yea sis I know it's hard on everyone but they don't need that back talk and attitude ok ?" He ask sitting next to me

I nod my head agreeing

" You know I always wanted a older brother " I say looking at him

He smiles down at me

" I always wanted a little annoying sister " he says grinning

" Hey..... I'm not annoying " I say " well maybe sometimes but still" we share a little laugh

" think we should head back down and talk everything over " He says getting up holding his hand out to me

I take it and we walk down the stairs as Brother and Sister

" Ok now that everyone is here we have  news " Senjai says looking down

" Trey..... Trey is dead " She says

I cast my gaze towards the floor that's when blue comes and stands on her leg scratching at me to pick her up

I pick her up

" When?" Chris ask tears clearing tryna not to come out

" He was helping me and Alana and they started shooting and things didn't look pretty " she says looking at the floor

" damn we were all so close he was like a brother " Kid says closing his eyes leaning against the counter

" I know it's hard for everyone here I'm so sorry " she says

These words lead me into memories

Me and Trey are 15 and there's this dance coming up that Trey promised to take me to

"Trey " I say
He looks up at me

" Yea?"

" You're still taking me to the dance right ?" I ask pushing my glasses up my nose

" Uhm about that ....." He pauses

Oh no here it comes Krystal

" I don't know if ..... If........ If I can fit my suit anymore so I'm going to buy a new one " he says smiling that award winning smile

" Ugh you suck I thought you were going to tell me Krystal pushed you into asking her " I say laying back on his bed

" Pssst she could never make me break a promise to you " he says tapping my nose

" Kids get down here " Trey Moms call

We run down the stairs

" Yes mom?" Trey asks

" have a seat baby Me and your dad have some news " she says smiling with dimples like Trey

" Ok son so you know how I've been aiming to get that big promotion ?" Trey dad ask

" Yes sir ?" He responds

" Well I got it " his dad says smiling proudly

" Wow dad congrats " Trey says smiling and giving his dad a man hug

" Thank you son && My job is located is Huntsford " his dad says looking from me to Trey

" If you wanna stay here Mr Smith kindly agreed to let you stay with them

He stayed with us for a minute but eventually moved to Huntsford but had a car so he drove back and forth to see me & Krystal

Looking back my life has pretty much been a lie
Trey family was paid to protect me and keep me safe but I wonder if he even really loved me
I guess I will never know the truth behind the lies

Just a filler chayote nothing important in this one next one coming soon 😌😌