Lost memory // X Shu sakamaki

Chapter 10 : My loss

Short, I know - sorry. Next chapter will be really intresting... the things starting to hit up! 

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She was walking down the white corridor. Before she knocked on the door she took a deep breath and calm down. "Yes?" Umi's voice sent chills down her body. "It's me" Akia said, her voice shaking. "You can come" Umi said. Akia opened the heavy door and walked into the room. Umi was lying on the white bed; her smile was bright as always. Only she could smile in her bad situation.

"How are you?" Umi was the first to talk.
"I'm good" Akia lied. Almost every night she would sit down and cry for her bitter fate. "How are you doing?" – "My head started to hurt yesterday after you left, but besides that I'm feeling good" She smiled.
"Oh..." Akia said, sitting next to her.
"I... wanted to say... thank you... for what you done for me... and I'm sorry that I was angry about you that day... I know it's not easy to have a dying friend... so thank you for being here with me til the end" .
'Those words, every time... every time she is saying those kind of things to me... the smile and the optimistic spirit I come with just being killed immediately.'
"It's... fine... so, how was your day?" Akia tried to change the topic,
"Do you go here to the art lessons?"
"There's a nurse, her name is Hiro. She takes care of me because I can't walk... she always brings me books and something to draw on, she's the best!" Umi smiled. "I'm happy you are fine here" Akia smiled too.
"Oh, shit, it's time to go to school" Akia jumped from her chair.
"I will visit you after school!" Akia said and opened the door.
"Akia wait!" Umi suddenly yelled.
"W-What?" Akia asked, turning around.
"Can you...come tomorrow? I think I will go to sleep now..." Umi said, her voice is quite. "Oh, fine" Said Akia. "Akia" Umi said again.
"Yes?" Akia asked.
"I'm looking forward for tomorrow" She smiled.
"Me too, Umi chan"

Akia lean against the thin glass window, looking at her class mates. She was really depressed from the last couple of days. Seeing Umi in the hospital with all those appliances on her body, all those medicines, siting all day long alone...
'Stop thinking about it' Akia tried to cheer up herself.
Into the class walked Shu, his eyes closed and his earphone stuck in his ears, as usual. She didn't even look at him, she didn't even see him walking into the class. She was too busy with her thoughts.
Something in her worried and bothered face made him wonder.

Akia walked pass all the doors, not giving a damn about the moaning Yui in the music room. Shu did this in premeditatedly, being sure she will enter the room and then the two will be able to talk normally.
He was surprised to see her pass by swiftly, even though the exit was in the other corner of the school. "I'm done" He said angrily as he let go of Yui.
"Shu san..." She whispered as she looked at him with fear in her eyes. No, this felt wrong. Akia always had that pleasurable expression, it was better than this one.
He walked after the purple haired girl and stopped when she stopped.
She walked into the art class. He watched her carefully.
She took one of the canvases and put it so she could see it. Shu walked into the room, and saw a beautiful painting of Akia. In the painting she was smiling, and she had a flower in her hair. She was looking on the butterfly which was sitting on her fingertip. Her calm and happy face in the painting looked so... satisfied.
Even Shu felt kind of happy seeing this masterpiece.
"It's a really good painting" He said, his deep voice woke her up from her little bubble. "What are you doing here?" She asked, not even looking angry or sad. Her face was just...numb, and it bothered him.
"I was looking for you" He said as he walked closer. She didn't stepped back.
"What do you want from me?" She asked. "What happened to you?" He asked.
"Nothing".
"Lying isn't your thing, is it?" He asked as he warped his hand around her.
Nothing. Her expression was the same. In other words – boring.
"Tch. Stop being so bothering" He said angrily. He wanted to see her getting excited again or angrily, or even cry. He wanted to leave his scar on her, he wanted to make her feel something from his own body and words, but nothing seems to happened; even if the fangs almost touching her skin, she saying no word. "Speak" He ordered. "About what?" She asked.
"I don't care, just speak. I want to hear your voice" He said.
"I need to go" She said. Even those simple words sounded feeless.

She was about to open the school's door to leave but a hand rested against it. She rose her eyes to see Yuma.
"Oi, where is your friend? I need to talk to her" He said, almost like blushing.
Akia's eyes widen. Fear and pain was placed in her eyes, her whole body was shaking. Anger took its place.
"Get lost" She said angrily and tried to open the door.
"What did you just say?!" He got angry as well.
"She won't be in school ever again thanks to you" Akia hissed.
"What are you talking about" He angrily said.
"You a piece of trash! Didn't you know Reiji was going to kill her?! Isn't he your friend or something! Go and ask him about Umi!" Her voice was dry but clear.
"Stop yelling already! I don't get it! What Reiji did?" – "He poison her and now she is going to die. You are the lowest. She loved you and you didn't even tried to stop Reiji or protect her, even though she was ready to give everything just to be right next to you!!!!".
Yuma became quite. He was thinking. And then it hit him – Reiji killed Umi.
"I didn't know... he was going to do that" He whispered. He was shocked, she could see it in his eyes. "It's too late anyway, so don't bother her" She said as she pushed the door, leaving him there alone. He was looking at the floor, not sure what to do.

She walked swiftly into the hospital. She felt that after that fight she must to see her. She walked into her room, but the bed was empty. "Where is she?" She asked the nurse who came into the room. She had tears in her eyes.
"What...happened..." Akia asked, shocked. "She died."

The scream inside her head explode her. She felt as if a glass broke into a million pieces inside of her. She fell to her knees, she thought she was going to faint. Her dear friend, her ONLY friend, died because of HER.
"I know It's hard" The nurse said, sobbing, "But you must keep being happy for hers sake too now".
No. Impossible. This can't be reality. It can't be this painful.
'I thought I was going to die, but then a voice inside of me told me called my name'

It was in the middle of the month, one day afte rher loss, one day after that event. It seemed much more difficult to breathe and to walk.
'Finally' Akia thought as she stood there, on the top of the roof.
The pall moon watched her, looking into her numb eyes. The shining yellow wasnow in grey shade, more like dark khaki color.
' Maybe my fate should end here, right here, right now.' She smiled to the sweet thought. Is this it? The time to join all her precious people in haven?
Or will she end up in hell, for breaking her promise to the Vampire's king.Therefore, the feeling of hell burned inside of her, nothing could get worse –It was her break point.
'And then I found out, how really hard it was to live in our world. Those demons surrounding us, not leaving our soul alone. So maybe, just maybe, I canget rid of my soul, so those demons stop hunting me.'
The stars were so bright and clear, what was going on? It felt as if they were trying to pull her closer to them... to raise her up... she held out her hand,trying to touch them, trying to reach them, stepping closer on her toes, and when she felt she was going to caught just one of them, she fell into the blackness.